strong warnings in the guise of gentle words
so i'm a girl, but i'm not girly. consequently, pretty boys do not like me. [it would be awesome if guys actually liked girls like the title-character of Juno.] because of this, i should probably become a nun. however, nuns are kind of lame. if i were a guy, i'd totally be a monk (they are much cooler and had better churches in ancient times), but since i'm not, i think i'll just have to aim for celibacy like the lead singer from Weezer.
...he is a pretty hip guy, so it's not the end of the world.
in other news, i hate that i'm self-centered enough to write this post. it's incredibly difficult to become completely selfless and think nothing of your own desires and wants. at what point is that unhealthy? is it never unhealthy? or do you have to think about them to a certain extent? it seems as though all teachings, religious and secular (although i would argue most so-called secular morality is at least derived from religious backing), advocate becoming completely selfless. i'm beyond a novice [in the uninformed direction] at Biblical scripture, but from what i can pretend that i know, God is supposed to take care of things once you become completely selfless. or maybe it's just that He'll align in you the right desires. or maybe still that you can have desires, but you just need to surrender them to Him and stop trying to fulfill them yourself. i really have no idea. i am still left questioning the intensity and even existence of my wants. concerning interpersonal relations, to be selfless seems to demand ignoring our desires or ridding ourselves of them completely. but i have often been chastised by friends in my failed relational past for not telling gentlefolk when i fancy them, for instance. so people seem to advocate making your desires known. although, what do people know anyway? perhaps there really is no difference between speaking your desires and keeping them quiet--they still exist, and the point of being selfless is to eradicate them, not just harbor them in silence...although perhaps the latter is our only feasible option as humans.
as an additive: it was once said in one of my philosophy classes that selfish love is loving a person's joy in you, whereas selfless love is loving a person's joy in things/people unconnected to you.
..i think i shall give a less self-pitying/introspective post sometime soon.
...he is a pretty hip guy, so it's not the end of the world.
in other news, i hate that i'm self-centered enough to write this post. it's incredibly difficult to become completely selfless and think nothing of your own desires and wants. at what point is that unhealthy? is it never unhealthy? or do you have to think about them to a certain extent? it seems as though all teachings, religious and secular (although i would argue most so-called secular morality is at least derived from religious backing), advocate becoming completely selfless. i'm beyond a novice [in the uninformed direction] at Biblical scripture, but from what i can pretend that i know, God is supposed to take care of things once you become completely selfless. or maybe it's just that He'll align in you the right desires. or maybe still that you can have desires, but you just need to surrender them to Him and stop trying to fulfill them yourself. i really have no idea. i am still left questioning the intensity and even existence of my wants. concerning interpersonal relations, to be selfless seems to demand ignoring our desires or ridding ourselves of them completely. but i have often been chastised by friends in my failed relational past for not telling gentlefolk when i fancy them, for instance. so people seem to advocate making your desires known. although, what do people know anyway? perhaps there really is no difference between speaking your desires and keeping them quiet--they still exist, and the point of being selfless is to eradicate them, not just harbor them in silence...although perhaps the latter is our only feasible option as humans.
as an additive: it was once said in one of my philosophy classes that selfish love is loving a person's joy in you, whereas selfless love is loving a person's joy in things/people unconnected to you.
..i think i shall give a less self-pitying/introspective post sometime soon.