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i feel like i'm eavesdropping on conversations that are taking place thousands of miles away. or just across town. in the other room or even across the room. or maybe when i've stepped outside for a moment to have a cigarette. i feel like i can read people's minds. i'm pretty sure it's just my imagination, that i'm not listening to actual conversations, but that it's just all made up from preconceived ideas and judgments about who or what a person is about, and how they feel towards me. of course it's delusions of self grandeur, though sometimes i feel a drift on someone else entirely, and it's not about me, and i really can't help it when it comes.
i catch a conversation or a thought or what's being said and felt towards another person. i get an attitude, a picture, an emotion coming from one person directed towards another. more often than not i don't like knowing what other people think about other people, because inmyhumbleopinion they're mostly always wrong in their thoughts. but i can be interested in these kind of conversations, cause knowing their general attitude towards others kindof helps if you want to get a feel for what type of person they are.
in any case, i can't help but be more drawn to things about myself. like, if there are literally two conversations going on and one is about someone else and one is about myself... i'm going to listen to the one about myself first. but maybe i should listen to the other first, or maybe neither. i don't know what is right. probably neither. lean not on your own understanding!
but let's face it. i'm probably accruate about my accusations. about what is being said nonethless. no matter how imaginary it might be in my head, it is based on... experience. i have predicted and been assured of my accuracy. more than once. and not just recently, but for yeeears. this is evidence enough for me to believe that i'm probably accurate most of the time. some of the time, at least. and so now i'm convinced i'm psychic. but maybe not psychic, maybe i just have a good eye.
i catch a conversation or a thought or what's being said and felt towards another person. i get an attitude, a picture, an emotion coming from one person directed towards another. more often than not i don't like knowing what other people think about other people, because inmyhumbleopinion they're mostly always wrong in their thoughts. but i can be interested in these kind of conversations, cause knowing their general attitude towards others kindof helps if you want to get a feel for what type of person they are.
in any case, i can't help but be more drawn to things about myself. like, if there are literally two conversations going on and one is about someone else and one is about myself... i'm going to listen to the one about myself first. but maybe i should listen to the other first, or maybe neither. i don't know what is right. probably neither. lean not on your own understanding!
but let's face it. i'm probably accruate about my accusations. about what is being said nonethless. no matter how imaginary it might be in my head, it is based on... experience. i have predicted and been assured of my accuracy. more than once. and not just recently, but for yeeears. this is evidence enough for me to believe that i'm probably accurate most of the time. some of the time, at least. and so now i'm convinced i'm psychic. but maybe not psychic, maybe i just have a good eye.