new and fun things
yay i final have a computer of my own!! i bought a apple ibook all for myself what a wonderful christmas present!! but i still have to buy the microsoft office so that i can do my papers on it ......oh well thats going to cost me another 200 bucksd that i dont have but i need it. i think that i am in the whole about 3000 dollars
how great does that ssound !!!!!!awesome right
hahahhaa
So anyway i move in to my apartment on firday well tomorrow that is and i am really not looking forward to it ...my grandma is in the icu still and she should have been out today ..i am nerv-raked out of my mind and i had a really bad angsitity (cant spell) attack for the first time yesterday i thought that my heart stop beating and that my lungs were closing. I couldn't breath it was the scariest thing that has ever happened to me , i thought that i was going to die. I dont like my gram in the hospital it is freaking me out and i have noone to turn to ...ed id a fag and he shows no sympth for me what so ever ..he doesnt understand that my gram pretty much raised me my whole life and that if anything were to happen to her that i would end up in the phyc ward at ecmc ......there wouldnt be a person left in this body ..i would be dead.
how great does that ssound !!!!!!awesome right
hahahhaa
So anyway i move in to my apartment on firday well tomorrow that is and i am really not looking forward to it ...my grandma is in the icu still and she should have been out today ..i am nerv-raked out of my mind and i had a really bad angsitity (cant spell) attack for the first time yesterday i thought that my heart stop beating and that my lungs were closing. I couldn't breath it was the scariest thing that has ever happened to me , i thought that i was going to die. I dont like my gram in the hospital it is freaking me out and i have noone to turn to ...ed id a fag and he shows no sympth for me what so ever ..he doesnt understand that my gram pretty much raised me my whole life and that if anything were to happen to her that i would end up in the phyc ward at ecmc ......there wouldnt be a person left in this body ..i would be dead.