last few days

[ulpunkette]

well these last few days have been really different ......i have so many things going on in my head and i have no idea why..all this shit has to happen to me .. do i deserve it all ....how do i manage?....how do i keep a stable mind about things? just how?... i really have no idea....i has been over a month since my uncle and his woman jen moved in to my house and taken over my area.....i have been able to handle them being here quit well but i can handle my grandmother and more she went to hit me a second the other day in front of my family ...do you know how embarrassing that was(sorry cant spell). I have never been treated with so much disrespect in my life by anyone of my family members...how dare she go to hit me in front of my mother and my aunt and uncle how dare she.....and for what over a fucking piece of chicken....come on please get a grip on life man there is always more food... not one person stuck up for my gram that night ...and it made me feel good. because everyone know that she was wrong but her. she is still being the biggest asshole to me 3 days later.. like i said before she needs to get a drip....fuck.... i am not 5 years old anymore....im 20 ...old enough to know when to get smart and when to get nasty...but dont through my weight in my face ...i know that i need to lose some more weight but i am taking my time i am not in a rush .....i will be skinny if that is the plan for me...and right now it isn't. i need to move out on my own but there is no way in hell that i could ever do that ...i dont make enough money to do that ...i have no friends that are looking to move out of there homes...there is just me..the loner the one person that gets shitted on more than anything in the world.
I can complain though about the way that ed and i are going ...i havent been more happy with him since we first started dating....but who knows how long that is going to last. but who knows....lifes a bitch so fuck it!!!!!