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uljima December 16 2012, 17:52:16 UTC
YOUR COMMENTS MAKE ME HAPPY MI. THEY FILL MY HEART WITH JOY AND CAKES. i'm so happy you liked it ♥ it's not as colorful and bright as pushing daisies BUT THERE'S A BIT OF IT THERE, THERE IS. THERE'S FLUFF RIGHT? A BIT OF IT BETWEEN LAYERS AND LAYERS OF BITTER ANGST. AND THERE'S A HAPPY ENDING, EVEN. WELL. ISH.

if she was in a river for six years, wouldn't she look a bit, well, actually, A LOT, decayed? or is she already but i just don't see it?

she wasn't in a river for six years, hahahhaha. she ran away six years ago, that's why they never "found a body". i didn't want to make it explicit - how she died, who she was running away from, why there was so much darkness - because myungsoo didn't want to see those things, and he didn't care about them. but if you must know: she was coming back to her old small town after all those years because she was lost and alone, she got a ride with boys she didn't know, and she was killed in a car accident while the car crossed a bridge over the river (the same bridge they thought she jumped from to kill herself, which she didn't). suzy ran away to escape from the darkness that crawled into her bedroom after her mother died, but i didn't want to write those things since it was in myungsoo's pov and he blocked those out TOO HEAVY TOO HEAVY. so it's all ~between the lines~.

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harues December 16 2012, 18:07:01 UTC
I KNOW THEY DO, THAT'S WHY I MAKE SURE TO MAKE THEM EXTRA LONG. it's not, but it fit just right. and there is fluff in the cracks plastered over angst but you can still see them!!! (HAPPY ENDING, YES, VAGUE, YES, MI IS STILL HAPPY EITHER WAY)

ah, that makes more sense! i thought she had died six years ago, from the way you had phrased it. well alright then! i caught the part where she was coming back home with some strangers and they went of course. i didn't pick up on that people thought she jumped and killed herself and the whole ~darkness crawled into the room~

WOW DON'T I JUST LOVE THIS FIC EVEN MORE NOW.

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uljima December 16 2012, 18:13:09 UTC
OH AND I FORGOT TO SAY BEFORE:
what i imagined of suzy's life is ridiculously sad. even if she actually didn't realize at all, myungsoo was all she had, too, when growing up. at the end of the day, myungsoo's house was her house, and his bed was her bed, and myungsoo himself belonged to her and her only, so willingly it bothered her. also her tattoo, love always. i think suzy never truly believed in love like he did, but myungsoo was a constant reminder that love was possible and love was there and it was real, and i imagine that - when she found herself completely alone and helpless - she thought of myungsoo and his overwhelming love and need for her and it was a comforting feeling. she loved him, in her own broken way.

OH SUZY YOU TWISTED LITTLE THING. /HUGS

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harues December 16 2012, 18:36:57 UTC


STOP YOURSELF

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uljima December 16 2012, 19:21:28 UTC
I CAN'T


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