She Looks Like Heaven, Maybe This is Hell
sooooo
ashley and i are ok i guess. we haven't talked it out yet, but she's forgiven me, but i'm still not sure for what.. she said she'd prefer to write it out in a letter "her thoughts" that is. and she's not done, it's like 2 pages now, omg it's going to be like a novel. and apperently it's mostly aobut jarred.. hmmmm thank you for your concern, but what is she trying to do? make me break up with him? yea i don't think so.... oh well, she's just looking out for me. we'll see when i get it.
it's still a little aquard around eachother, only because it's like hanging over my head, i don't know if she feels like that but i sure do. it's like i'm putting on a fake smile, but then i think to my self why? it's not like she's mad at me anymore, but could i be mad at her? i'm not as far as i know. she's one of my bestfriends, and why would i let something like that ruin our friendship?
you know how when someone gets mad at you, you blame everything else but yourself before you think aobut it. because you don't want to think that YOU could hurt your frind that bad. well i blamed everything on jarred that happened with that, in 2 entries ago. and it wasn't his fault at all. and i' not even close to being mad at him, i'm the exact opposite of mad at him
I WUB HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my mom's being REALLY REALLY mean. i wonder if she's PMSing because she deffinatly stoped being nice. everytime she goes to the bathroom in a public place i'm going to wonder what i did and who she's calling (looonnnggg story).
I talked to sarah rachelle about the talk that they had aobut how jarred controls my life. sarah thinks just b/c she see's things happen some how that means he controls my life? but she only hears aobut, or see's half the story, and most of the time she doesn't ask if it's resolved, or she see's a bruse on my leg and asks what it's from and when i tell her jarred she automaticly think that he beats me or something. lol we play around!! he pinched me because i pulled his leg hairs, and bit him.. we play around, and it's alot of fun.
i just think that even thoguh people get concerned and stuff they just kinda need to think.. hey ashley know's what she's doing, and it's her life, and if was really THAT bad, she would be doing what she's doing.
but i still love them all.
anyway kendra and i are going to our secret cafe after school!! it's been a while. i'm excited.
rachelle and miranda are friends again. i'm happy for them, you could really tell that they missed eachother. well i only really talked to rachelle about it, but she missed her alot. it's aobut time..
i don't get to go to chris' show :( i'm sad
well i bes be going
the bells going to ring
- Ashley
ashley and i are ok i guess. we haven't talked it out yet, but she's forgiven me, but i'm still not sure for what.. she said she'd prefer to write it out in a letter "her thoughts" that is. and she's not done, it's like 2 pages now, omg it's going to be like a novel. and apperently it's mostly aobut jarred.. hmmmm thank you for your concern, but what is she trying to do? make me break up with him? yea i don't think so.... oh well, she's just looking out for me. we'll see when i get it.
it's still a little aquard around eachother, only because it's like hanging over my head, i don't know if she feels like that but i sure do. it's like i'm putting on a fake smile, but then i think to my self why? it's not like she's mad at me anymore, but could i be mad at her? i'm not as far as i know. she's one of my bestfriends, and why would i let something like that ruin our friendship?
you know how when someone gets mad at you, you blame everything else but yourself before you think aobut it. because you don't want to think that YOU could hurt your frind that bad. well i blamed everything on jarred that happened with that, in 2 entries ago. and it wasn't his fault at all. and i' not even close to being mad at him, i'm the exact opposite of mad at him
I WUB HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my mom's being REALLY REALLY mean. i wonder if she's PMSing because she deffinatly stoped being nice. everytime she goes to the bathroom in a public place i'm going to wonder what i did and who she's calling (looonnnggg story).
I talked to sarah rachelle about the talk that they had aobut how jarred controls my life. sarah thinks just b/c she see's things happen some how that means he controls my life? but she only hears aobut, or see's half the story, and most of the time she doesn't ask if it's resolved, or she see's a bruse on my leg and asks what it's from and when i tell her jarred she automaticly think that he beats me or something. lol we play around!! he pinched me because i pulled his leg hairs, and bit him.. we play around, and it's alot of fun.
i just think that even thoguh people get concerned and stuff they just kinda need to think.. hey ashley know's what she's doing, and it's her life, and if was really THAT bad, she would be doing what she's doing.
but i still love them all.
anyway kendra and i are going to our secret cafe after school!! it's been a while. i'm excited.
rachelle and miranda are friends again. i'm happy for them, you could really tell that they missed eachother. well i only really talked to rachelle about it, but she missed her alot. it's aobut time..
i don't get to go to chris' show :( i'm sad
well i bes be going
the bells going to ring
- Ashley