wow...havent been her in a while
brother T gave me some good advise, he said (and i DONT quote..cuz i dont remember the EXACT quote, lol)
that sometimes loving someone, and really caring about them is not being "with" them and not having that emotional attachment. (i thought it made a lot of sense) cuz im always gonna love this kid, no matter how bad he hurts me. but maybe the best way to love him is to let him know he is loved, and that im always here for him, but not be "with" him and have that "attachment".
no real updates...Vday sucked ass (ITS NOT YOUR FAULT AND IM NOT MAD AT YOU, SO DONT WORRIE ABOUT ITl, PLEASE, you know who you are)
my so called "bf" told me he liked and thought my best friend thought she was hot...and he was hittin on her, and pretty much told me i was fat and needed to loose weight. it pissed me off but im not mad at her at all cuz it wasnt her fault that he was hittin on her and she was like "WTF", so yeah. it made me laugh though, cuz my ex bf (whom i dumped, rather vishously) was being nicer and treatin me better. we're friends and cool now. but sadly i like him again *sigh* anywayz, he was like "ouch, thats harsh" and i was like "i know...but i kinda expected it" and sadly...i did (^^^^refering to above)
anywayz, im still working WAY to much and have no life anymore
Spent the night at Audrey's last night (co-worker) and it was SOOO much fun, we went salsa dancing and chilled with her friends. unfortunatly for me though on of her friends took quite a liking to me and gave me his number. the worst part is, is i wasnt even flirting, i was being myself and just cool and chillin and yeah...he kept wanting to dance with me and i didnt wanna be mean, but yeah. *sigh*
im not "cute" or pretty and all the guys are just stupid, i figure they either A) think im easy B) are fucked up in the head or C)think its cool i do drugs and shit and think im easy to fuck up and bang...
or they just think something random about me that prolly isnt true and taking a liking to that. anywayz
goal: -20
how: cigg~befor school, lunch, break
equals: tommy's, mine and everyone elses happieness
my friend called me and i kinda like her, and i always tell her what happens with this guy, cuz she knows him and stuff and i told her what happened and she was like "oh my fucking god, im gonna PERSONALLY beat his motherfucking ass the next time i see him" she always tells me how pretty she thinks i am (she is bi) it always makes me smile.
she is a good friend, she told me about how he was cheatin on me when no one else had the guts to (not refering to freinds for-warnings)
anywayz im gonna go finish off this bottle of Captin Morgan and go to bed...after i listin to some of the new Twiztid and ICP CD's i baught today.
P.S. everone go to Sam Goody they are having a HUGE sale on ALL their music. its 30% off right now, and will be going even lower in price soon, cuz they are closing. i got 4 CD's for like 49 bucks (which, if you ever buy a CD now'a days you know that 10 bucks a CD is dirt ass cheap cuz they are normally like 15-20 bucks)
P.S.S. every other weekend Fri-Sun Ragstock has a 25% off sale on ALL items, even already on sale items, i got a shirt and a hat for under 10 bucks, which at normal pricing would have cost me around 20 cuz the shirt was originally $16.99 and the hat was like 9 bucks orginally, so i say...GOOD SALE!!
GO GO GO GO GO GOOOOOO to allllll the good stores while you can =)
HAPPY DRINKING!! *large toothed cheaky grin* =)
that sometimes loving someone, and really caring about them is not being "with" them and not having that emotional attachment. (i thought it made a lot of sense) cuz im always gonna love this kid, no matter how bad he hurts me. but maybe the best way to love him is to let him know he is loved, and that im always here for him, but not be "with" him and have that "attachment".
no real updates...Vday sucked ass (ITS NOT YOUR FAULT AND IM NOT MAD AT YOU, SO DONT WORRIE ABOUT ITl, PLEASE, you know who you are)
my so called "bf" told me he liked and thought my best friend thought she was hot...and he was hittin on her, and pretty much told me i was fat and needed to loose weight. it pissed me off but im not mad at her at all cuz it wasnt her fault that he was hittin on her and she was like "WTF", so yeah. it made me laugh though, cuz my ex bf (whom i dumped, rather vishously) was being nicer and treatin me better. we're friends and cool now. but sadly i like him again *sigh* anywayz, he was like "ouch, thats harsh" and i was like "i know...but i kinda expected it" and sadly...i did (^^^^refering to above)
anywayz, im still working WAY to much and have no life anymore
Spent the night at Audrey's last night (co-worker) and it was SOOO much fun, we went salsa dancing and chilled with her friends. unfortunatly for me though on of her friends took quite a liking to me and gave me his number. the worst part is, is i wasnt even flirting, i was being myself and just cool and chillin and yeah...he kept wanting to dance with me and i didnt wanna be mean, but yeah. *sigh*
im not "cute" or pretty and all the guys are just stupid, i figure they either A) think im easy B) are fucked up in the head or C)think its cool i do drugs and shit and think im easy to fuck up and bang...
or they just think something random about me that prolly isnt true and taking a liking to that. anywayz
goal: -20
how: cigg~befor school, lunch, break
equals: tommy's, mine and everyone elses happieness
my friend called me and i kinda like her, and i always tell her what happens with this guy, cuz she knows him and stuff and i told her what happened and she was like "oh my fucking god, im gonna PERSONALLY beat his motherfucking ass the next time i see him" she always tells me how pretty she thinks i am (she is bi) it always makes me smile.
she is a good friend, she told me about how he was cheatin on me when no one else had the guts to (not refering to freinds for-warnings)
anywayz im gonna go finish off this bottle of Captin Morgan and go to bed...after i listin to some of the new Twiztid and ICP CD's i baught today.
P.S. everone go to Sam Goody they are having a HUGE sale on ALL their music. its 30% off right now, and will be going even lower in price soon, cuz they are closing. i got 4 CD's for like 49 bucks (which, if you ever buy a CD now'a days you know that 10 bucks a CD is dirt ass cheap cuz they are normally like 15-20 bucks)
P.S.S. every other weekend Fri-Sun Ragstock has a 25% off sale on ALL items, even already on sale items, i got a shirt and a hat for under 10 bucks, which at normal pricing would have cost me around 20 cuz the shirt was originally $16.99 and the hat was like 9 bucks orginally, so i say...GOOD SALE!!
GO GO GO GO GO GOOOOOO to allllll the good stores while you can =)
HAPPY DRINKING!! *large toothed cheaky grin* =)