family love
*sigh* okay...now im really begining to wonder how many people in my family know....
My dad kissed me on the forhead today and has been asking me to hang out with him like everyday (i dont mind so much, cuz i never do anything with him)
My oldest sister just emailed me to go to church, inwhich she does sometimes...but it was just WAY random.
THEN...and this is the kicker of them all...then i get a Email from my uncle Dan, i was like WHOW!! cuz ive never gotten a email just saying "hi" and stuff...it was weird ass...i mean, dont get me wrong, i enjoyed it, cuz ive always loved hanging with him and have always looked up to him. its just...random and weird.
so for im thinking that she not only told my dad and my sister karina (cuz she tells her everything) she told my uncle...or he found out some how.
i da know, i guess its just something that happens in a family (speaking from Oprah and Dr.Phill, lol, i LOVE those shows) but whenever a family finds something like this out about a member, they all do everything they can to make them feel loved, wanted, accepted. etc. and i guess this is just my familys attempt.
dont get me wrong, im not ungrateful at all, and im not milking it either. but really...if anyone was goign to say they loved me...i wish it would be 2 ppl out of anyone....2 ppl that i question...i REALLY question if they love me. one, i suppose, just cuz he is family, they other, im almost postive doesnt....sadly, thats the one i long for acceptence from the most. ya know?
anywayz, i think this is the most i have used the word 'love' in one peice of writing and its startin to weird me out, so im gonna stop.
but just one last thing...
do YOU know what its like? what its like to love someone with, to REALLY love them, you'd give the world to them, you'd give your life for them. you love them with everything in you that is pure and to not have them give a flying rats ass of weather your dead or alive?....it hurts......*sigh*
anywayz, on a happier note, ive lost 2lbs =). im not really concerned with my weight anymore, im more or less concerned about being 'toned' which is why im taking WT i suppose, eh? lol, anywayz im really enjoying this whole Vegan thing. but i ate some cookies after school, like just not even thinking till after i ate them that they were, by far NOT vegan friendly, and i actually felt REALLY sick. not that im sure you want to know this, but like 30 min later, i puked it all up...unvolenteraly. so yeah, NO MORE SLIP UPS!!!
mmm...but my daddy made homemade french-fries =), they are tasty. fresh potatos made into french fri goodness minus that fatty animal oils =)
gonna go sulk in my bed and go to sleep cuz i have to get up at 7.15 for a hair appt at 8.30...BLECH!! but its the only time she had left. *sigh* good night....
PS...if there is no call by sunday, i will call,proclaim, apologize, and let go *heavy tearful sigh*
night
My dad kissed me on the forhead today and has been asking me to hang out with him like everyday (i dont mind so much, cuz i never do anything with him)
My oldest sister just emailed me to go to church, inwhich she does sometimes...but it was just WAY random.
THEN...and this is the kicker of them all...then i get a Email from my uncle Dan, i was like WHOW!! cuz ive never gotten a email just saying "hi" and stuff...it was weird ass...i mean, dont get me wrong, i enjoyed it, cuz ive always loved hanging with him and have always looked up to him. its just...random and weird.
so for im thinking that she not only told my dad and my sister karina (cuz she tells her everything) she told my uncle...or he found out some how.
i da know, i guess its just something that happens in a family (speaking from Oprah and Dr.Phill, lol, i LOVE those shows) but whenever a family finds something like this out about a member, they all do everything they can to make them feel loved, wanted, accepted. etc. and i guess this is just my familys attempt.
dont get me wrong, im not ungrateful at all, and im not milking it either. but really...if anyone was goign to say they loved me...i wish it would be 2 ppl out of anyone....2 ppl that i question...i REALLY question if they love me. one, i suppose, just cuz he is family, they other, im almost postive doesnt....sadly, thats the one i long for acceptence from the most. ya know?
anywayz, i think this is the most i have used the word 'love' in one peice of writing and its startin to weird me out, so im gonna stop.
but just one last thing...
do YOU know what its like? what its like to love someone with, to REALLY love them, you'd give the world to them, you'd give your life for them. you love them with everything in you that is pure and to not have them give a flying rats ass of weather your dead or alive?....it hurts......*sigh*
anywayz, on a happier note, ive lost 2lbs =). im not really concerned with my weight anymore, im more or less concerned about being 'toned' which is why im taking WT i suppose, eh? lol, anywayz im really enjoying this whole Vegan thing. but i ate some cookies after school, like just not even thinking till after i ate them that they were, by far NOT vegan friendly, and i actually felt REALLY sick. not that im sure you want to know this, but like 30 min later, i puked it all up...unvolenteraly. so yeah, NO MORE SLIP UPS!!!
mmm...but my daddy made homemade french-fries =), they are tasty. fresh potatos made into french fri goodness minus that fatty animal oils =)
gonna go sulk in my bed and go to sleep cuz i have to get up at 7.15 for a hair appt at 8.30...BLECH!! but its the only time she had left. *sigh* good night....
PS...if there is no call by sunday, i will call,proclaim, apologize, and let go *heavy tearful sigh*
night