"And Our Scars Remind Us That The Past Is Real"

[uknowulove__me]

I'm trying so hard to push all those old thoughts from my mind

to fight them, for what seems like the 2947927492 bajillionth time

no matter how many battles i win i can never seem to win the war

you know?

no, you probably don't know

for some reason i'm....hurting

the way i feel...it's just...ugh

and it gets to me, because i assume others must be thinking the same things and then it just perpetuates itself...

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

it takes so much energy to battle the same ways of thinking over and over

but i'm tryyyyyyyyyyying

still

but sometimes i feel so lonely...well i mean at least in this area...because i can't really talk about it

usually i'm totally fine but every once in awhile...

and it hurts

because there's nowhere to go

except back to myself

and those same old things

sorry to be all whiney and laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame

feel free to post a comment with a metophorical bitch slap to the face for me being so selfish and whiiiiiiiiiny

but hey it's lj, and isn't that what these things are for?

well you know

okay yeah you probably don't