I hope you will take the time to read this...
Before I start this post I want everyone to know that I am not depressed. You may not believe it but I am not depressed.
TO WHOM IT CONCERNS,
I am being kinda weird lately. Dont quite know why. I am at my turning point, my starting place, my pinnacle of power. I say pinnacle of power because everything I do now will affect the rest of my life in 1000 different ways. I could be rich, I could be happy, I could be desperate, I could be depressed, I could be stressed, I could hate my job, I could love my career, I could be well off, I could bearly get by, I could be single, I could fall in love, I could be married (and trust me that branches off in many different directions too), I could be fat, I could be fit, I could loose focus, I could draw closer, I could mess up, I could succeed, and for all I know I could die early. Everything is crashing down to the next 4 or 5 years of my life to determine the next 40-50 years of my life or even more. I want to do them right. I want to make good decisions. The worst part of all this is that I do not know what to decide. No one can help me. I am alone. I am not complaining and I am not asking for help. I have always made it and I believe in myself to make it again. If you do believe in my God then pray for me. If you do not then tell me you care or that you believe in me. I know I am still young, but here at college there are those who are not and are still in my spot. I do not want to end up like them. I want answers from myself and I want them now. I call not on my own strength...
I thank God for my life, I thank God for my father, I thank God for my mother, I thank God for my sister, I thank God for my extended family, I thank God for my EC friends, I thank God for my drama friends (even though most do not believe in my God they still had enough decency to respect that I did (sometimes)), I thank God for my Gifts, I thank God for my blessings, I thank God for my strength, I thank God for his strength, I thank God for my sight for on many occasions I could have lost it, I thank God for my good friend Jason, I thank God for my good friend Amberly, I thank God for my good friend who I hope knows who she is because she has done more for me than she knows, I thank God for my dark apprentice, I thank God for my DM (you may not believe what I do, but you showed me a lot about my faith), I thank God for my parents again because I think they pulled me through more than anyone, I thank God for those who are still reading because they cared for me enough to read for 10 minutes, and finally I would like to thank God for my teachers, not my school teachers....I believe it was Thomas Edison who said "Everyone is my teacher, because everyone knows something that I dont."
I care for you all....I wish you the best....I cant wait to see you....Much love to you...
Everyone has tought me so much. I only ask that you tell others who know me to read this.
Things will change. Things will stay the same. I will adjust. I will not move.
I do what I can...
TO WHOM IT CONCERNS,
I am being kinda weird lately. Dont quite know why. I am at my turning point, my starting place, my pinnacle of power. I say pinnacle of power because everything I do now will affect the rest of my life in 1000 different ways. I could be rich, I could be happy, I could be desperate, I could be depressed, I could be stressed, I could hate my job, I could love my career, I could be well off, I could bearly get by, I could be single, I could fall in love, I could be married (and trust me that branches off in many different directions too), I could be fat, I could be fit, I could loose focus, I could draw closer, I could mess up, I could succeed, and for all I know I could die early. Everything is crashing down to the next 4 or 5 years of my life to determine the next 40-50 years of my life or even more. I want to do them right. I want to make good decisions. The worst part of all this is that I do not know what to decide. No one can help me. I am alone. I am not complaining and I am not asking for help. I have always made it and I believe in myself to make it again. If you do believe in my God then pray for me. If you do not then tell me you care or that you believe in me. I know I am still young, but here at college there are those who are not and are still in my spot. I do not want to end up like them. I want answers from myself and I want them now. I call not on my own strength...
I thank God for my life, I thank God for my father, I thank God for my mother, I thank God for my sister, I thank God for my extended family, I thank God for my EC friends, I thank God for my drama friends (even though most do not believe in my God they still had enough decency to respect that I did (sometimes)), I thank God for my Gifts, I thank God for my blessings, I thank God for my strength, I thank God for his strength, I thank God for my sight for on many occasions I could have lost it, I thank God for my good friend Jason, I thank God for my good friend Amberly, I thank God for my good friend who I hope knows who she is because she has done more for me than she knows, I thank God for my dark apprentice, I thank God for my DM (you may not believe what I do, but you showed me a lot about my faith), I thank God for my parents again because I think they pulled me through more than anyone, I thank God for those who are still reading because they cared for me enough to read for 10 minutes, and finally I would like to thank God for my teachers, not my school teachers....I believe it was Thomas Edison who said "Everyone is my teacher, because everyone knows something that I dont."
I care for you all....I wish you the best....I cant wait to see you....Much love to you...
Everyone has tought me so much. I only ask that you tell others who know me to read this.
Things will change. Things will stay the same. I will adjust. I will not move.
I do what I can...