Boy Problems...

[ukiyo_joshi]

Some mornings have a certain feel to them. I’m not sure why, but maybe it’s how well you slept through the night, who you are waking up with, or how you spent the night before. I can’t really explain it, but I’d have to say it’s one of my favorite feelings/experiences. These are the mornings that you actually enjoy the sunlight coming through

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[forsakensky]

The mornings are wiser than the evenings. I don't know how you feel when it comes to waking up like that. Perhaps you can show me one day when you get to Cali? I mean it.

You know you're more than a plain old girl from Ogden, UT. I remember how you used to tell me about those girls in UT. As easily as I can remember, they were nothing like you.

I've seen you... back then, in your words upon introduction - you seemed so free. You had a world that you and I only shared. It did convince me that you were such an unshackled girl, but unfortunately... through the times where I've been around you, it's been the opposite. I had to get used to seeing you differently. Sometimes I tried too hard to find the you I knew so well but I figured I was trying too hard. You were there all along... but the situation was different. It seemed challenging to concentrate on what we were used to giving each other. That's how I see it. Or maybe I just didn't know how to?

Truth is, I still see the same reasons that have brought me to love you so much even up to now. Although we haven't been talking as actively lately, I know you're always someone I can depend on, so I always feel close to you. I never have to question whether you're some ordinary girl from Ogden, UT or if you're the brilliant, radiant girl that has always been so naturally beautiful inside and out.

Maybe to certain people, you're more than you seem? That's how you are to me.

[ukiyo_joshi]

Unfortunately over time that free spirited girl was lost to real life, heartache, abuse, and lies. The times I seen you and we were able to spend a significant amount of time together, I was unhappily married. You're not the only person who tried so desperately to find that girl again, but she was lost in the pain of her situation. Maybe if I'd been able to find her a few years ago, I wouldn't be where I am today.

"Maybe to certain people, you're more than you seem" Or maybe to certain people, I'm exactly what they want me to be. Our minds can be deceiving, eh?

Thanks for the kind words and I hope to see you soon. <3