Most definitelymemnoch_rashidMarch 31 2004, 02:15:57 UTC
After all the hell wrought itself upon my life and my dreams shattered I hit complete rock bottom. I never thought such tears or water lurked within my body. That was weird, my floor so wet it was literally in pools, then pools of blood lay around from my stomache lining or esophogus being worn away due to my constant vomiting. Yeah, I feel ya. I found that after hitting such rock bottom I had the chance to look up so to speak. Something happened where I "saw the light" so to speak. Then I began to recognize my stregnths. Then I saw that I wasn't wrong and saw that I'd done nothing wrong and that what happened happened for a reason and I was free. My grandmother who'd raised me had just passed and less than after that my Fiance of 2 years had dumped me for my best friend. WooHoo, Truth revealed itself and I started anew. Such pain shouldn't grace anyone, yet when I reflect upon it, I see the reason behind all 3 relationships crumbling. My grandmother passed at 94, it was her time and there was peace about that even though she'd raised me since my mother nor father were present in my life. My ex best friend was a back stabber who apparently always talked shit behind my back. Then my ex fiance of 2 years and I just grew apart and her financial dependancy on me was just unhealthy. Of course theres much more but those are meaningless details. The point is that I saw the reason such events occured and I grew from them. My heart was at peace so to speak b/c I was fearful at that time that I had done something wrong. I'm not sure if you're going through that same problem but maybe hearing my experiance might help. I fought hitting rock bottom but I realize that I needed to hit rock bottom in order to realize the purpose behind it all and see what may lay ahead of me depending on choices I could make. Thats why I say "Seeing the Light" so to speak. Anyway, my prayers are with ya. I know exactly how you feel. Kind Regards, Hans Christoffer/Memnoch Rashid
I found that after hitting such rock bottom I had the chance to look up so to speak. Something happened where I "saw the light" so to speak. Then I began to recognize my stregnths. Then I saw that I wasn't wrong and saw that I'd done nothing wrong and that what happened happened for a reason and I was free. My grandmother who'd raised me had just passed and less than after that my Fiance of 2 years had dumped me for my best friend. WooHoo, Truth revealed itself and I started anew. Such pain shouldn't grace anyone, yet when I reflect upon it, I see the reason behind all 3 relationships crumbling.
My grandmother passed at 94, it was her time and there was peace about that even though she'd raised me since my mother nor father were present in my life. My ex best friend was a back stabber who apparently always talked shit behind my back. Then my ex fiance of 2 years and I just grew apart and her financial dependancy on me was just unhealthy. Of course theres much more but those are meaningless details. The point is that I saw the reason such events occured and I grew from them. My heart was at peace so to speak b/c I was fearful at that time that I had done something wrong. I'm not sure if you're going through that same problem but maybe hearing my experiance might help.
I fought hitting rock bottom but I realize that I needed to hit rock bottom in order to realize the purpose behind it all and see what may lay ahead of me depending on choices I could make. Thats why I say "Seeing the Light" so to speak.
Anyway, my prayers are with ya.
I know exactly how you feel.
Kind Regards,
Hans Christoffer/Memnoch Rashid
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