Aug 24, 2006 01:05
so iwas finally able to take a walk tonight, even though i was back home before 10:30, i was still barely able to go outside. my mom was just being uber paranoid about the whole concept and how something would happen to me, and it's like, i;ve done this b4 and i know the neighborhood. yesterday she didn't even let me out, i don't get what the big deal is, my theory is that she's going nuts because once i leave for college she won't have almost any direct control over me. but at ;east i got to walk for the half hr i did. walking on the last block of cortez this guy was walking in front of me for a bit and i kept thinking he was gonna go into the next house, but never did and started talking to me, just asking me how i was and everything, he was pretty nice actually. when i said that my night had been somewhat stressful he even offered me a cigarette, i guess everyone does smoke nowadays. we talked for a few min before he got to his house, the last one of the block and he said he hoped everything would be better for me tonight, and it wasn;t much, just a short random convo w/a stranger, who i was still cautious about, but, idk, it's nice to know that there are still nice people out there. the walk itself was good, gave me a bit of time to relax, i would've enjoyed it somewhat more if i didn't have to rush back home and didn't have my mom calling me though. just cleared my mind and unwound a little bit, thinking about random stuff, and by the end of it i decided that i am ready for college and i'll do just fine, i just need to be careful. i also realized how much i'm gonna miss the neighborhood, even though i don;t hang around here nearly as much as i used, but i think i want to move back to the area after college, and hopefully some other ppl will still be living here too. kinda want to move into the east village closer to wicker park, but not right in all the action, but more than close enough. i love this city so much, and i am gonna miss it so. yesterday i found a bunch of concerts i'm gonna be missing, and i'm already trying to get back in october for one, or at least thinking about it, and i haven't even left yet, kinda sad, i know. they say that madison is a pretty big music city and has a really good scene with a alot of up-and-coming bands, but definitely nowhere as much as chicago. chicago has one of the best music scenes in the country right now, and i'm leaving it for a short while, that seems like forever right now. mailwaukee isn't that far away, i can go for some concerts out there, but not really when i have class the next day, i don't want to catch a bus after midnight and get up for class, i still might occasionally, but not planning on it yet. i'd rather come back to chicago for the wkend if i can catch the same concert.i'm prob gonn ahave to end up getting a 2nd job just so i can pay for the concert tics and transportation to them. not much going on besides my thoughts lately, trying to just get everything organized and packed, no clue how that's gonna happen since i'm procrastinating so much. well, getting tired, hopefully i'll fall asleep at a decent hr, so peace and love out.