and now for our future presentation: Pyscho Mom part III.... =\
mom: "i cant believe you are my daughter sometimes"
"and i thought you were christian"
"i cant beleive you even came to live with us"
me: "im sorry you feel that way"
i dont hate her. i jsut need time.
i wish i could have said more... i couldnt surprisingly. which is weird knowing the way i can say things out of anger. i suppose it is just the beginning of something better.
--- i told my mother i was going to my dads house right after those comments were made. i saw things my brother wrote about me and i told her to look at it. of course she didnt care and said that maybe if i didnt act that way - people wouldnt make judgements. to continually be told to stay out of my brothers life because all i do is "hate on him" and i have absolutly no reason to do so. that the threats and the hitting and the verbal abuse is perfect in her eyes. i woke up today to be told to clean my bathroom... she was scrubbing his. maybe im jealous? i dont know what is going to happen from this point on. all i know is that its taken a lot to get me out. she kept saying things like if my phone bill was high that she would take my phone away. i told her i dont really need a cell phone. she told me that if any information was told about rick and my mom to my father that she would have the rest of my stuff in bags being sent back to my dads house. it fascinats me how things work out so. just oday she asked me to get a pedicure with her..... im just excited to go to church on tuesday. be with God and start over. ----
i hate to leave and i dont nkow how long i will be gone. but when i talked to my dad and i told him what happened.. i couldnt hold back the tears any longer. it was warming and wlcoming to hear him say ill be there around 7 and you can stya as long as you want. it was nice for him to tell me he wanted to see my pictures and to bring my bathing suit because he got his spa working and the deck built. it will be nice to see my sister and give my family their gifts i got from the bahamas. it will be nice to have a dinner at the dinner table with everyone and sit and laugh about pointless things and those long conversations about random information i love to listen to my step mom ramble on about. it will be wonderful to be tucked into bed like i was 10 again and be kissed on the forehead and be told that he loves me. i will be hapy when i find me and sister in the living room dancing to 80s while cleaning the house and preparing dinner. i will look back and smile like i do almost every time. ----
me: "im sorry you feel that way"
i dont hate her. i jsut need time.
i wish i could have said more... i couldnt surprisingly. which is weird knowing the way i can say things out of anger. i suppose it is just the beginning of something better.
--- i told my mother i was going to my dads house right after those comments were made. i saw things my brother wrote about me and i told her to look at it. of course she didnt care and said that maybe if i didnt act that way - people wouldnt make judgements. to continually be told to stay out of my brothers life because all i do is "hate on him" and i have absolutly no reason to do so. that the threats and the hitting and the verbal abuse is perfect in her eyes. i woke up today to be told to clean my bathroom... she was scrubbing his. maybe im jealous? i dont know what is going to happen from this point on. all i know is that its taken a lot to get me out. she kept saying things like if my phone bill was high that she would take my phone away. i told her i dont really need a cell phone. she told me that if any information was told about rick and my mom to my father that she would have the rest of my stuff in bags being sent back to my dads house. it fascinats me how things work out so. just oday she asked me to get a pedicure with her..... im just excited to go to church on tuesday. be with God and start over. ----
i hate to leave and i dont nkow how long i will be gone. but when i talked to my dad and i told him what happened.. i couldnt hold back the tears any longer. it was warming and wlcoming to hear him say ill be there around 7 and you can stya as long as you want. it was nice for him to tell me he wanted to see my pictures and to bring my bathing suit because he got his spa working and the deck built. it will be nice to see my sister and give my family their gifts i got from the bahamas. it will be nice to have a dinner at the dinner table with everyone and sit and laugh about pointless things and those long conversations about random information i love to listen to my step mom ramble on about. it will be wonderful to be tucked into bed like i was 10 again and be kissed on the forehead and be told that he loves me. i will be hapy when i find me and sister in the living room dancing to 80s while cleaning the house and preparing dinner. i will look back and smile like i do almost every time. ----