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It has been quite a couple of weeks. It's not over, and I don't mean to make it sound like it is. I'm sure that much has yet to roll on in and make me feel crazy and lose my grip, but you know, right now, i'm okay with that.
Chris and I find out tomorrow whether or not we got this place in Hawthorne that we applied for. Its a block off of Hawthorne, on Madison, at 17th, which is like, so fucking close to everything, its crazy. I didnt think we'd get that close. We have our fingers crossed. The wise one's keep telling us it will all work out, if not with this place, then another one, a better one! I just smile and try to believe.
I pretty much have no idea what i am doing with my life. I felt a little bit of direction about a year ago, but now i mostly just feel scared and lost. Moving does that to people. At least that's what they say.
The good days and bad days start to get all mussed up together like twine. But fuck it, I like twine. Not to say, per say, that i like being depressed, i Don't, but at least i have the breaks in between. And no, i'm not going to take meds. Infact, there are a few people who's meds i'd like to snatch away from them. But thats another story.
I think Spring is made to be so beautiful so that people dont all go killing themselves when the stresses that come along with this time start to weigh down on them. Thats why flowers exists. That, and to give people allergies.
So, i'm waiting for the owner of Cavity Search Records to call me back so i can interview him for my paper. Then, next week i've got to write my final paper, a whopping 15 pager or so.
AND i start class at PSU n the 29th.
But we are going to Kauai in October and quite frankly, i'm going to start being excited about that now. I havent been home in 7 years. People, i'm going home! and i'm getting to take my boyfriend with me!
HHHMMmmmmmmm..... good bye.
Chris and I find out tomorrow whether or not we got this place in Hawthorne that we applied for. Its a block off of Hawthorne, on Madison, at 17th, which is like, so fucking close to everything, its crazy. I didnt think we'd get that close. We have our fingers crossed. The wise one's keep telling us it will all work out, if not with this place, then another one, a better one! I just smile and try to believe.
I pretty much have no idea what i am doing with my life. I felt a little bit of direction about a year ago, but now i mostly just feel scared and lost. Moving does that to people. At least that's what they say.
The good days and bad days start to get all mussed up together like twine. But fuck it, I like twine. Not to say, per say, that i like being depressed, i Don't, but at least i have the breaks in between. And no, i'm not going to take meds. Infact, there are a few people who's meds i'd like to snatch away from them. But thats another story.
I think Spring is made to be so beautiful so that people dont all go killing themselves when the stresses that come along with this time start to weigh down on them. Thats why flowers exists. That, and to give people allergies.
So, i'm waiting for the owner of Cavity Search Records to call me back so i can interview him for my paper. Then, next week i've got to write my final paper, a whopping 15 pager or so.
AND i start class at PSU n the 29th.
But we are going to Kauai in October and quite frankly, i'm going to start being excited about that now. I havent been home in 7 years. People, i'm going home! and i'm getting to take my boyfriend with me!
HHHMMmmmmmmm..... good bye.