Hm.
Have you ever been so totally consumed by one person that everyone else seems to just blur into the background?
On one hand I love having one person there all the time, no matter what.
On the other hand I know I am neglecting people that I shouldn't be and if I continue to do so I won't have anyone left.
Then what happens if that one person who is consuming me vanishes? Then I'm left alone.
But the thing is, I know that the fact that I am neglecting people isn't entirely my fault. I literally feel like I can't trust most of the people in my life.
I mean, in light of recent events, I have found out that a lot of things I talk about are twisted and revealed to people who I hardly know but find comfort
in hearing about me. It doesn't make sense.
I don't understand why people can't just keep secrets anymore.
I need to stop being such a pisces.
I need to surround myself with the people who I used to spend my time with. People who aren't fake party friends and who
have always had my complete trust and never violated it.
Sure, I spend my time with a lot of people who are fun and know how to go out and drink and socialize. With these people there is
never a dull moment and always something to talk about. But I need to realize that when I am not there, I am the one being talked about.
I had a conversation the other day that basically made me realize something. He told me that they didnt care about having others
like him and that he didn't care if somebody was upset with him for just saying what he wants to say, because he has me. Isnt that all you really need, is one person?
Then why do I care so much about being liked by everyone?
I have that one person. I should be content. But for some reason I am constantly worried about everyone else.
On one hand I love having one person there all the time, no matter what.
On the other hand I know I am neglecting people that I shouldn't be and if I continue to do so I won't have anyone left.
Then what happens if that one person who is consuming me vanishes? Then I'm left alone.
But the thing is, I know that the fact that I am neglecting people isn't entirely my fault. I literally feel like I can't trust most of the people in my life.
I mean, in light of recent events, I have found out that a lot of things I talk about are twisted and revealed to people who I hardly know but find comfort
in hearing about me. It doesn't make sense.
I don't understand why people can't just keep secrets anymore.
I need to stop being such a pisces.
I need to surround myself with the people who I used to spend my time with. People who aren't fake party friends and who
have always had my complete trust and never violated it.
Sure, I spend my time with a lot of people who are fun and know how to go out and drink and socialize. With these people there is
never a dull moment and always something to talk about. But I need to realize that when I am not there, I am the one being talked about.
I had a conversation the other day that basically made me realize something. He told me that they didnt care about having others
like him and that he didn't care if somebody was upset with him for just saying what he wants to say, because he has me. Isnt that all you really need, is one person?
Then why do I care so much about being liked by everyone?
I have that one person. I should be content. But for some reason I am constantly worried about everyone else.