who knows how long its been
I think I'm writing here because I need to vent about what has happened in the past week, and for the past year for that matter.
My mother and I lived with Kevin's grandpa for almost 2 years. This past sunday (17th) he passed away. It's still sooo unreal. sometimes I feel like when I wake up, he will be sitting in his chair eating breakfast. Yesterday was the viewing and boy was it hard to see him. You look at him and you just think of all the memories that you shared with him. Its going to be really hard letting go. Today was his funeral. for me, it wasn't that difficult, until Lindsay read a poem aloud and started to cry. let me tell you that she made everyone cry!! I can't help it. my mom is taking it very hard as well. Her dad died last 4th of July. and now losing someone else that ended up being a very great friend and family member. It will be rough for everyone because we did just lose a great person. Lindsay and her cousin both made a slideshow for "Bud". Again Lindsay had the whole room in tears at the end. Bittersweet. This is going to be really hard, especially for Kevin. Those two were soo close. Bud, i hope you are resting in peace with no pain and i hope you are with your loving Betty and Joey. WE LOVE YOU!!
ok..enough crying..time for some good news...i finally quit my job at rocky mountain chocolate factory!! yay!! i now am employed at old navy in the westminster mall down in orange county. Closer to school and closer to our new home. We finally got an apartment down in Fountain Valley!! Me, kevin and nancy. You guys need to come down and visit. its perrty. I feel like now i'm taking a step forward in my life, but i'm afraid of leaving my mom behind. hopefully she will go down a path that will take her where i am. i should buy her a puppy so she isn't as depressed :)
im starting my fourth year at cal state long beach, majoring in consumer affairs :) fun fun! just don't ask me what it is because it will take me at least 15 minutes to explain it. my third year was the last year i was in the dorms. my roomate and i didn't get along spring semester. drama went down, everything got mixed up, but im not going to fix it because its partially her fault as well. whatever. i'll take the blame. its not like we were close anyway. well we did know eachother since i was in the fourth grade. as much as i want her back in my life, right now is not a good time. OK! OVER IT!!
moving on....back to the work situation
i guess i like it more than r.m.c.f...more flexible, IM NEVER BY MYSELF!, and i love my co-workers. its so weird. i thought it would take me long to actually be comfortable around them, but it only took me 4 days. i thought i was shy and anit-social, but i guess i was wrong. turns out there is someone who is more shy than me. we talk because i want her to open up. she's getting there. the managers and supervisors are cool too. especially michael...oh my goodness is he cuutee! hahaha..and joe..he's pretty cool. i love making him feel gullible. its great. im glad that we have that kind of friendship. but i still miss my old buddies at rocky mountain. geez...everyone that i worked with before left right after me. thats crazy. ashley is down in costa mesa (YAY!!), jennifer just quit because..well..she just did. Maria got a new job that paid more, and ashton (oh my goodness that ashton) either got fired or quit or something like that. right after i left a new girl joined the group by the name of Barbara. When i went back to get cookies the other day, turns out they let her go because she complained too much. haha..didn't we all?? i hope denise, nancy, and maricela are taking care of the place.
almost 4 and a half years with kevin. people say that we are already married. ehh..hehehehe..we'll see about that.
this feels so good..i need to do this more often. update my life just so i can get it out of my head.
i'm glad that i still have this thing. maybe i'll update in a year from now..hahahaha...
bye bye
~karina
My mother and I lived with Kevin's grandpa for almost 2 years. This past sunday (17th) he passed away. It's still sooo unreal. sometimes I feel like when I wake up, he will be sitting in his chair eating breakfast. Yesterday was the viewing and boy was it hard to see him. You look at him and you just think of all the memories that you shared with him. Its going to be really hard letting go. Today was his funeral. for me, it wasn't that difficult, until Lindsay read a poem aloud and started to cry. let me tell you that she made everyone cry!! I can't help it. my mom is taking it very hard as well. Her dad died last 4th of July. and now losing someone else that ended up being a very great friend and family member. It will be rough for everyone because we did just lose a great person. Lindsay and her cousin both made a slideshow for "Bud". Again Lindsay had the whole room in tears at the end. Bittersweet. This is going to be really hard, especially for Kevin. Those two were soo close. Bud, i hope you are resting in peace with no pain and i hope you are with your loving Betty and Joey. WE LOVE YOU!!
ok..enough crying..time for some good news...i finally quit my job at rocky mountain chocolate factory!! yay!! i now am employed at old navy in the westminster mall down in orange county. Closer to school and closer to our new home. We finally got an apartment down in Fountain Valley!! Me, kevin and nancy. You guys need to come down and visit. its perrty. I feel like now i'm taking a step forward in my life, but i'm afraid of leaving my mom behind. hopefully she will go down a path that will take her where i am. i should buy her a puppy so she isn't as depressed :)
im starting my fourth year at cal state long beach, majoring in consumer affairs :) fun fun! just don't ask me what it is because it will take me at least 15 minutes to explain it. my third year was the last year i was in the dorms. my roomate and i didn't get along spring semester. drama went down, everything got mixed up, but im not going to fix it because its partially her fault as well. whatever. i'll take the blame. its not like we were close anyway. well we did know eachother since i was in the fourth grade. as much as i want her back in my life, right now is not a good time. OK! OVER IT!!
moving on....back to the work situation
i guess i like it more than r.m.c.f...more flexible, IM NEVER BY MYSELF!, and i love my co-workers. its so weird. i thought it would take me long to actually be comfortable around them, but it only took me 4 days. i thought i was shy and anit-social, but i guess i was wrong. turns out there is someone who is more shy than me. we talk because i want her to open up. she's getting there. the managers and supervisors are cool too. especially michael...oh my goodness is he cuutee! hahaha..and joe..he's pretty cool. i love making him feel gullible. its great. im glad that we have that kind of friendship. but i still miss my old buddies at rocky mountain. geez...everyone that i worked with before left right after me. thats crazy. ashley is down in costa mesa (YAY!!), jennifer just quit because..well..she just did. Maria got a new job that paid more, and ashton (oh my goodness that ashton) either got fired or quit or something like that. right after i left a new girl joined the group by the name of Barbara. When i went back to get cookies the other day, turns out they let her go because she complained too much. haha..didn't we all?? i hope denise, nancy, and maricela are taking care of the place.
almost 4 and a half years with kevin. people say that we are already married. ehh..hehehehe..we'll see about that.
this feels so good..i need to do this more often. update my life just so i can get it out of my head.
i'm glad that i still have this thing. maybe i'll update in a year from now..hahahaha...
bye bye
~karina