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by this point im basically convinced that i am slightly disconnected from the world, while simultaneously being actively involved. everything i do seems so integral in my daily life, and seems to have alot of impact on alot of other people, but then when i look at my feelings from anything i feel like i am not effected like anybody else would be. like some things may go down and i show like no reaction. good things happen and i just take it in stride. i know i have emotions, but i think i may keep some so secret that not even i am consiously aware of them. i guess im just too aware of whats going on and not aware enough of my feelings about these things.