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i have realized that i dont know how to socialize in school anymore. i feel so boring and like im a burden to people i talk to. it seems like im never around friends until i get out of school. i used to go to school to see my friends, now i have to leave school to see them. well there are a couple friends in my classes, but i havent been around them enough to like...i dunno. except in 4th block i have 2 totally sweet people sitting behind me, so thats cool.
i guess thats part of the reason why i just want to be done with this place...how everything has become so different and not fun. im beginning to hate the world i live in. people arent interesting to me anymore. for me right now, its basically a matter of how much of a jerk one person is gonna be and how long its gonna take for you to realize it. i think there are 3 people in my life that arent jerks. that sucks.
so if almost everyone is a jerk, then what does it matter if i leave or not? no matter where i go, people will suck. i feel like the words im saying are like depressing, but i dont really feel sad or cynical or anything.
i guess thats part of the reason why i just want to be done with this place...how everything has become so different and not fun. im beginning to hate the world i live in. people arent interesting to me anymore. for me right now, its basically a matter of how much of a jerk one person is gonna be and how long its gonna take for you to realize it. i think there are 3 people in my life that arent jerks. that sucks.
so if almost everyone is a jerk, then what does it matter if i leave or not? no matter where i go, people will suck. i feel like the words im saying are like depressing, but i dont really feel sad or cynical or anything.