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ever feel like everyone is against you? even the people that you know care about you? it just sucks to like even think that people that you care about are against you...even you know that its not true. its just like the people you want to support you arent there 100%. thats what i wanna say. people that care about me seem to be behind me only partially. people are so wishy-washy and i hate it to put it in the words of lily, sorta. and why the fuck do people say whats on their mind sometimes and dont at others. why dont you just fucking talk to me, dont ignore me.
im not quite sure what im supposed to do socially anymore. as much as she says she wants to be my friend, i know its difficult. today didnt seem too awkward, though. im at a weird point where situations all around me are shaky. and i just end up having a minimal amount of fun wherever im at. whatever, i got a bike and shit, i dont care. a night when im riding is better than hanging out with people most of the time anyway. yeah i said it, and you know its true. but i do love those who make me feel good, so you should be happy about that.
im not quite sure what im supposed to do socially anymore. as much as she says she wants to be my friend, i know its difficult. today didnt seem too awkward, though. im at a weird point where situations all around me are shaky. and i just end up having a minimal amount of fun wherever im at. whatever, i got a bike and shit, i dont care. a night when im riding is better than hanging out with people most of the time anyway. yeah i said it, and you know its true. but i do love those who make me feel good, so you should be happy about that.