Poetic release
So it's been a while since I last updated this... I have found a new interest in my life as well. I can't help but feel alone in this world because everytime I tell myself to not fall, I fall for a girl yet again. This time it's for a girl that has been in my life for a while and until just recently I've realized that I want to be a more significant part of hers only I never get the chance. I feel a burning for her everytime I'm away from her and it's only aided when she stands before me. I know there can't be too much to get over but at the same time I don't want to let go cause I know I could treat her right. All I need is that chance and I know I could shine i can honestly say from a friend's stand point that I care about her and I could never hurt her but maybe she doesn't know this.. or does she?? There's so many questions I sit here and ask myself but I will never know unless I ask her myself. I feel like such a little boy and everytime this happens to me i feel so elementry. If it's really so easy then why do I hurt so bad to know she's there but I can't be with her. Im lost from this concept of what's right when all I want is possibly a few dates with this person and just for her to be a quote/unquote "girlfriend" to me. Im not asking for an eternity but simply just a chance. Maybe Im meant to live alone but I can't be content with that thought so I fall for her today and let it wither me apart when there's other things to worry about.