Sleepy
4:45am as I type this. I fell asleep around 2:30-3am but here I am. Awake. This has been happening a lately. I try to go to sleep. Roll in bed for around an hour or so and maybe finally fall asleep. But then in the middle of the night, I wake up. It's just been getting worst. At first I woke up every six hours. Then five hours. Four. Three. Which quickly became two. And it seems like I've finally hit one now.
Was it a nightmare? I don't know. I really don't. I just know even though I wake up my body wants to be asleep. Why am I awake then? Why? I don't know. I wished I did. If I did I wouldn't be here right now. This is probably another reason or contribution to me being so easily hurt or being too sensitive isn't it. Or is it being hurt or sensitive that's causing this?
For one night. Please. Just let me sleep the whole night through. Eight hours. I'm tired of being awake and hating myself while I'm awake. If I'm to hate myself at least let me have enough sleep so I'm not cranky and agitated the next day and I can't focus in class.
Finals are coming. I can't afford being like shit like this right now. I can't. I really really can't.