Happy Anniversary
It's another year, and this year, I've been a bad one this year, Disappoint a lot of people and hurt a lot of people. Becoming a person that only knows how to hurt others and worry others... I told hyung I'll change, care more and be there more... But I guess, at the end of the day, she's right, people like me will only hurt others. I'm sorry Mao...
I've failed you. I didn't do anything you asked me to do, and I didn't do anything that you would ever be proud of in me. Maybe you hate me already, and wished you never met me... Sometimes I wonder, if you never met me, maybe you wouldn't have died. Maybe you wouldn't have left everyone that needed you so much... Maybe if that night, we didn't chat together, and I didn't yell at you, you would have been able to stay with everyone you love and everyone you care about.
I'm sorry, Mao. I'm so sorry. Sometimes I wished nobody really met me, because if it wasn't for me, maybe everyone would have been happy... Maybe everyone would have been better off without me. You changed my life... And sometimes I feel like I was the reason you lost your life... I blame myself for your death sometimes. I think and think and just think it's all because of me... I don't know... I hope you're happy regardless. Thank you for being here for me all this time. I'm really thankful for it.
Happy Anniversary, love. You're still the love of my life, even if I do maybe one day fall for someone else, you'll always still be in my heart... Whether you're still watching over me or not... I'm sorry... I'm sorry to you and to everyone that loved and cared... Sorry... I still love all of you guys, even if I don't show it, even if I'm always quiet and distant... I really love you guys... You guys are my family. I'm sorry I fail as a family member.
I've failed you. I didn't do anything you asked me to do, and I didn't do anything that you would ever be proud of in me. Maybe you hate me already, and wished you never met me... Sometimes I wonder, if you never met me, maybe you wouldn't have died. Maybe you wouldn't have left everyone that needed you so much... Maybe if that night, we didn't chat together, and I didn't yell at you, you would have been able to stay with everyone you love and everyone you care about.
I'm sorry, Mao. I'm so sorry. Sometimes I wished nobody really met me, because if it wasn't for me, maybe everyone would have been happy... Maybe everyone would have been better off without me. You changed my life... And sometimes I feel like I was the reason you lost your life... I blame myself for your death sometimes. I think and think and just think it's all because of me... I don't know... I hope you're happy regardless. Thank you for being here for me all this time. I'm really thankful for it.
Happy Anniversary, love. You're still the love of my life, even if I do maybe one day fall for someone else, you'll always still be in my heart... Whether you're still watching over me or not... I'm sorry... I'm sorry to you and to everyone that loved and cared... Sorry... I still love all of you guys, even if I don't show it, even if I'm always quiet and distant... I really love you guys... You guys are my family. I'm sorry I fail as a family member.