i hate my car

[uglythestarsare]

i have a very stronmg instinct to run and i can't do it either literally by getting in the car and going or by doing drugs cuz i dont have very much in that dept, or the money dept, or the wokring car dept. i feel so trapped, i cant take it. and i found out the wanting me to be home early and not do much exciting is an effort to keep me from becoming manic and its too late and i dont know why they think suicidally depressed is such a better option. just let me goooooooooooooo. i like being manic better. it annoys the crap out of eveyone around me for sure but im having fun atleast
i wanna run free

and i want my own bathroom. i feel sick