eating like a normal human being.
Hello friends,
I know I've been gone for a while, but it was with good reason. I still haven't purged (yes!) and the urges are pretty infrequent now, which is great. so I have been trying to eat normally, and I've tried this before, with very little success, always ending up getting bigger and bigger portions as time goes by and eventually gaining all the weight back and then some. anyhow, this time has been different. I have not gained any weight back (although I did initially like 5 of 6 pounds but its gone now) so I am still at 130. and get this, I eat normally. its pretty wierd. One thing that really helped was eating go lean crunch cereal in the morning with no milk. The no milk isn't too restrict, but more to help me eat it more slowly so I recognize when I feel full. The fiber in the cereal serves two purposes. It stays in your tummy longer which gives you the sense of feeling full, and fiber binds with carbs and fats, so even though the cereal is a bit higher in cals, it really isn't bc of the fiber. anyway, it really helps me stay full during the day. I eat a light lunch with a snack (usually something vegatarian although not always), and then I have dinner if I have a bigger lunch I have a smaller dinner. Its amazing that I can eat this much. I wonder if I've beat it finally after all these years of going back and forth. I still have urges to purge once in a while, but they are pretty easily dismissed now. And restricting sometimes I think about it, and I probably do sorta restrict in little ways here and there but not like really "restricting". I tty to tell myself when there is allot of food around that even if I don't eat it all now, doesn't mean that if I do want more food some other time that I won't get it. I remind myself of how I can buy something I really enjoy some other time, and that eating it all right then and there is not my only option. That is something that really helps me, cause when I was younger we were really poor and often there wasn't much food or good food, so anytime there was good food I would gulp it down like I'd never see it again if I didn't get it right then and there, so I feel like that feeling sorta stuck with me my whole life, and the only way I could not do it was too totally restrict (opposite action) or purge if I did end up doing it.
So yeah not only have I been able to eat normally and not gain weight, sometimes I even loose weight. Its pretty amazing.
anyway I hope everyone is doing well and feeling better. maybe this will give people some hope (it can be done!) eating normally. I still feel like I am preaching, and almost like I'm lying, but I'm not. Its really happening.
much love -me
I know I've been gone for a while, but it was with good reason. I still haven't purged (yes!) and the urges are pretty infrequent now, which is great. so I have been trying to eat normally, and I've tried this before, with very little success, always ending up getting bigger and bigger portions as time goes by and eventually gaining all the weight back and then some. anyhow, this time has been different. I have not gained any weight back (although I did initially like 5 of 6 pounds but its gone now) so I am still at 130. and get this, I eat normally. its pretty wierd. One thing that really helped was eating go lean crunch cereal in the morning with no milk. The no milk isn't too restrict, but more to help me eat it more slowly so I recognize when I feel full. The fiber in the cereal serves two purposes. It stays in your tummy longer which gives you the sense of feeling full, and fiber binds with carbs and fats, so even though the cereal is a bit higher in cals, it really isn't bc of the fiber. anyway, it really helps me stay full during the day. I eat a light lunch with a snack (usually something vegatarian although not always), and then I have dinner if I have a bigger lunch I have a smaller dinner. Its amazing that I can eat this much. I wonder if I've beat it finally after all these years of going back and forth. I still have urges to purge once in a while, but they are pretty easily dismissed now. And restricting sometimes I think about it, and I probably do sorta restrict in little ways here and there but not like really "restricting". I tty to tell myself when there is allot of food around that even if I don't eat it all now, doesn't mean that if I do want more food some other time that I won't get it. I remind myself of how I can buy something I really enjoy some other time, and that eating it all right then and there is not my only option. That is something that really helps me, cause when I was younger we were really poor and often there wasn't much food or good food, so anytime there was good food I would gulp it down like I'd never see it again if I didn't get it right then and there, so I feel like that feeling sorta stuck with me my whole life, and the only way I could not do it was too totally restrict (opposite action) or purge if I did end up doing it.
So yeah not only have I been able to eat normally and not gain weight, sometimes I even loose weight. Its pretty amazing.
anyway I hope everyone is doing well and feeling better. maybe this will give people some hope (it can be done!) eating normally. I still feel like I am preaching, and almost like I'm lying, but I'm not. Its really happening.
much love -me