(not pertaining to comments from last entry)
ok first off ..................... FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!! wow i feel lil better now. next i had a dream last night that i was hanging out with patrick and his cousin ben we were just chilling playing nitendo and playstation ya know and of course i kept on wanting just be all over patrick but i held myself back. then all of the sudden ben rapped me and patrick just STOOD THERE looked shocked and then blank and jsut watched. tears falled down my face as i screamed at him and pleaded for him to help me but he didnt do a damn thing. then ben once he was done he tied me up and i woke up crying. wasnt that a great way to start the day. oh and then found out today that patrick and krysten go out......... i knew i wouldnt be prepared for this but no one obviously cares cause i see no action (im not saying break up im just saying words are words action speak louder than words) ok no im acting like a baby cause i just want to be held. no talking just held and let me cry. well quoting the physcotrist (i love my made up words.... well sorda made up) but yeah she says im "fragile" and says im crazy yet they wont put me on medication or in a institution. im starting to hate this world.... oh those other people who have it worse than me they can handle it obviously and they are different people from me i however cant handle things as easly as others. so in that case FUCK OFF!!!!!