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So he freaking loves me. I don't know what I think about that. Now he actually says "I love you" but he only says it when I'm really sleepy, already sleeping or fucked up. But he's sober when he says it. What does that mean? Shit. The other night he said it before we went to sleep and I even said "I don't think you mean that, but it's okay." I think I was half sleeping already. He didn't say anything. But he still keeps telling me he loves me so maybe he means it. Or thinks he means it. We've only been official for a month now but we've been together for a while. I'd say about 7 months over the last year and a half so...I don't know. Yikes. I don't think I love him. I mean if I do I'm not IN love with him. Really I don't even know what it is. So I could be I don't know. Sometimes I do feel like I just got socked in the stomach when I'm with him or talking about him or thinking about him. I doon't knooooww...