Unfinished
Sometimes you think your thoughts are your own, that you're the only one thinking them.
Then you see that others have the same thoughts, and you feel normal.
Sometimes, make that alot of times, I think of Amanda Augustine. I think about her family and Jarrod. About their pain, and of course about the kind of person Amanda was. Can you honestly say you know I person who was just nice? Just a goodperson? I can. I have now met 3 people in the world who I can't think of one thing they ever did wrong to me or to another person that I know of.
Amanda has been gone for just over 3 years now. There has not been a single week where I have not thought about it. When I think of her I think of my cousin. Sudden death leaves you empty and questioning. Amanda died because of complications with her diabetes, Mairead died because someone hit her with a car. Completely different but have the same effects on me. Questions left unanswered about why, and of course partial disbeleif. I am always thinking things like " i wonder when Mairead will get here? I wonder when's the next time shell visit my aunt, I'll try to go when she does" then I realize. And it's not a horrible feeling, almost like she's still around, if even for a brief moment.
My point, I miss someone I hadn't seen or spoken to in years simply because she was a very happy person my age who I expected amazing things for,1 who just stopped being. It's a difficult thing to swallow. I miss my cousin because I also though of the things she would do later in life, but it was cut WAY too short. Now the love g ae left with the pain. I wish I could let her family know she didn't just touch the lives of these that were close. I wish my family knew this too.
Then you see that others have the same thoughts, and you feel normal.
Sometimes, make that alot of times, I think of Amanda Augustine. I think about her family and Jarrod. About their pain, and of course about the kind of person Amanda was. Can you honestly say you know I person who was just nice? Just a goodperson? I can. I have now met 3 people in the world who I can't think of one thing they ever did wrong to me or to another person that I know of.
Amanda has been gone for just over 3 years now. There has not been a single week where I have not thought about it. When I think of her I think of my cousin. Sudden death leaves you empty and questioning. Amanda died because of complications with her diabetes, Mairead died because someone hit her with a car. Completely different but have the same effects on me. Questions left unanswered about why, and of course partial disbeleif. I am always thinking things like " i wonder when Mairead will get here? I wonder when's the next time shell visit my aunt, I'll try to go when she does" then I realize. And it's not a horrible feeling, almost like she's still around, if even for a brief moment.
My point, I miss someone I hadn't seen or spoken to in years simply because she was a very happy person my age who I expected amazing things for,1 who just stopped being. It's a difficult thing to swallow. I miss my cousin because I also though of the things she would do later in life, but it was cut WAY too short. Now the love g ae left with the pain. I wish I could let her family know she didn't just touch the lives of these that were close. I wish my family knew this too.