possibilities..
i love the life i'm on the verge of having :) no one is going to be hovering over me all the time, griping about how my boots aren't as shiny as they could be, or that i have a strand of hair protruding from my bun (god forbid). and then i have to be all fake and act like i give a shit "oh gosh... thank you SO much for telling me, i'll fix it right away." does it really MATTER? no fuck that. ugh. anyways i'm so glad to be getting out of this environment! sooooo happy! i have endless possibilities and choices now! i never realized how much i took being free for granted until i was in the military. i feel like i'm about to explode out of iron chains and run... but i'm still stuck for now. at least its coming though :D new york is going to be a breath of fresh air. guitar and singing on the street EVERY day! the best part is that i'll be living with my best friend. such a trip! its hard to fathom that living situation.. its always been such an abstract dream for the last 5 years or so... how crazy. a book or a movie should be made about the story of our friendship. it will be so interesting to see how this turns out. i feel like it should be something really important, just because the chances of our relationship developing to this or even existing at all was 1 in a bazillion! so after new york, its probably back to texas for a couple of weeks to a month.. just to spend time with my family, get my car and stuff all figured out, and maybe make some money. THEN i dont know... i'll either go to florida right away... OR do this thing called WWOOF and travel across europe and then go to hawaii for a couple months and go to miami next summer to start college. i think thats the best plan.. the only downfall is that i really want to be with kristin.. and i'm sick of moving around. i want a home and to be with a real friend hah. oh well. its life... it's not like it can be planned out. shit happens. we'll see where i end up! its definitely been a crazy journey thus far!