find another way to make the world go round
things i miss..
hanging out with ashley(before we both moved out and nothing had changed)
ashley in general
having a room of my own at my parents house to run away too
my dog
the summer
being able to wear flip flops
dance class
having that certain someone call just to say i love you
living on campus (not that i would go back)
knowing what i want from life
a printer that works
mom, dad, tommy and laura
spearmint candy canes (they just dont make them anymore!!)
myself
swing sets
liz and troy and getting away
sippy cups
my roommate
the disturbing cowboy
leaves on the trees
being able to run a five and a half minute mile
howie day playing at toads place
etc.
I need to start off by saying that nothing makes me happier than seeing my friends happy. This is where the dilemma comes into play. I'm happy for all of my friends, there just doesn't seem to be any way for me to express it to them. well thats not true. i can express it that i'm happy for them, i just can't ever tell anyone that i'm not happy with me. At the moment, there are a very select few people that i even feel comfortable around. I myself, cannot be counted within those few. I had quite a few family members tell me that I seemed really sad this year at thanksgiving. That i just wasn't myself. I really wish this wasn't true. I didn't even feel at home in Enfield when at home. Then I came here, to my "home" and had a good weekend.
-everyone must see pride and prejudice, and i mean everyone. it was an extremely moving, emotional masterpiece-
I'm sick of being the sad girl who no one knows is sad. I'm really really good at pretending. or maybe i'm not pretending. maybe i'm lying to everyone to try to get myself to believe it.
and lauren is always going to be able to make me laugh (this is of course in reference to the comment she just made which unfortunatly i cannot post but you can be sure was perfect)
i had a dream that my mother gave me therapy for christmas. if you can decifer this let me know what it means. i'd love to know.
i'll be fine. i just need to get through finals.
hanging out with ashley(before we both moved out and nothing had changed)
ashley in general
having a room of my own at my parents house to run away too
my dog
the summer
being able to wear flip flops
dance class
having that certain someone call just to say i love you
living on campus (not that i would go back)
knowing what i want from life
a printer that works
mom, dad, tommy and laura
spearmint candy canes (they just dont make them anymore!!)
myself
swing sets
liz and troy and getting away
sippy cups
my roommate
the disturbing cowboy
leaves on the trees
being able to run a five and a half minute mile
howie day playing at toads place
etc.
I need to start off by saying that nothing makes me happier than seeing my friends happy. This is where the dilemma comes into play. I'm happy for all of my friends, there just doesn't seem to be any way for me to express it to them. well thats not true. i can express it that i'm happy for them, i just can't ever tell anyone that i'm not happy with me. At the moment, there are a very select few people that i even feel comfortable around. I myself, cannot be counted within those few. I had quite a few family members tell me that I seemed really sad this year at thanksgiving. That i just wasn't myself. I really wish this wasn't true. I didn't even feel at home in Enfield when at home. Then I came here, to my "home" and had a good weekend.
-everyone must see pride and prejudice, and i mean everyone. it was an extremely moving, emotional masterpiece-
I'm sick of being the sad girl who no one knows is sad. I'm really really good at pretending. or maybe i'm not pretending. maybe i'm lying to everyone to try to get myself to believe it.
and lauren is always going to be able to make me laugh (this is of course in reference to the comment she just made which unfortunatly i cannot post but you can be sure was perfect)
i had a dream that my mother gave me therapy for christmas. if you can decifer this let me know what it means. i'd love to know.
i'll be fine. i just need to get through finals.