people change i guess
so i don't really know how long its been since i talked to ryan. a while really. like actually had a conversation with him. i miss having that one person who would call me on my bull shit. there are people that are around me that occasionally do it but most people don't know me well enough to even take some of the things that i say or do as shit.. if that makes any sense. he knew me too well to give him excuses. i miss having someone, who no matter what mood i was in, could make me laugh from some story that he would come up with. and he didn't come to star. i know i already said this and at this point it was a while ago but it was weird with out him. no matter how much i love all those people out there, if you are around people for long enough you just get sick of them and they bother you and well.. it was always good to have him there.. although this year i got to spend more time with dave which kicked ass.. i miss him too of course but i at least get to talk to him and find out his life is going. this year has just been really different and i wouldn't mind telling him about some of the things that have been going on. he's to busy off at college.. i just really miss him.
i was thinking about someone from my past yesterday too.. its been a long long time since i've talked to him. since before i moved into the apartment and i've been here for 10 months now... i loved him and i broke his heart.. why do girls do that? all we're left with are the memories of what we wish we could take back and what we would do different if we had the chance. live and learn i guess. i just hope that he knows that i loved him. im happy that he's happy now. thats really all taht matters.
well i'm not really sure what else to write...
i still like the same boy but i'm trying to figure out whether this is all worth it. i meant here are plenty of other guys out there.. and i'm going to troy to see liz in...22 daysssss!!! we'll see what kinda action goes on there lol... theres always something.. maybe the same something will happen. i would love that. :) either way i get to see liz which is always worth the 3 hours trip. and this time i get to leave at like noon AND i have the right directions so i won't be driving around downtown troy at midnight trying to figure out where the hell to go lol..
ok well i'm off to do something.. who knows what
i was thinking about someone from my past yesterday too.. its been a long long time since i've talked to him. since before i moved into the apartment and i've been here for 10 months now... i loved him and i broke his heart.. why do girls do that? all we're left with are the memories of what we wish we could take back and what we would do different if we had the chance. live and learn i guess. i just hope that he knows that i loved him. im happy that he's happy now. thats really all taht matters.
well i'm not really sure what else to write...
i still like the same boy but i'm trying to figure out whether this is all worth it. i meant here are plenty of other guys out there.. and i'm going to troy to see liz in...22 daysssss!!! we'll see what kinda action goes on there lol... theres always something.. maybe the same something will happen. i would love that. :) either way i get to see liz which is always worth the 3 hours trip. and this time i get to leave at like noon AND i have the right directions so i won't be driving around downtown troy at midnight trying to figure out where the hell to go lol..
ok well i'm off to do something.. who knows what