Explanation.
Thanks to those who commented on my last post, I guess I was just having a moment of self loathing.
My trouble is I'm so paranoid and insecure. I do make my vids because I enjoy it, but the ones I make that show the progress I'm making I do, not just for me, but to show to others how well I'm doing, so they can share in my joy. I guess what set off my negative mood was when I posted my beer festival vid, which I was so proud of because I was so afraid I wouldn't make it, and no one showed any interest...at least that's the way it seemed.
But I got AIM's from my friends who saw it and I didn't take into account that some people have dial-up.
I plan to keep making my progress vids and posting them, but unless I come up with another fun game to do, I'll prbably just stick to that.