I'm not dead...
Contrary to popular belief, no I am no dead, I just well have had a lack of internet lately. Since my last post? Well lets see, I had gull bladder surgery, and got to deal with a very fun infection.
Life is funny sometimes, how when you least expect something it seems to come up behind you and reveal itself. Its funny how when you plan something much farther down the road it happens way too early. Its funny how death seems to bring life. Its weird how when really great things happen to you, something else comes behind you and scares the crap out of you.
Some of you know the situation at hand, while others, well you may not. What you don't know is how scared I am, I wasn't expecting this, and while I'm scared, I think that we can do this, I think that yes it means we are going to have to work together, and yes I know it's going to be hard, but that we can do this. I know your not like him, but in the back of my mind that situation is still there and I'm scared that your going to get freaked out and that your going leave me. I know how unrealistic that is, how unfair it is to you, but still it haunts me.
I know that without you I can't do this, that if I had to do this on my own I wouldn't make it, well I hope that you know that too. I hope you know how much I'm going to need you. I hope we can do this, I know in my heart that if we try we can do this, we can do anything.
Life is funny sometimes, how when you least expect something it seems to come up behind you and reveal itself. Its funny how when you plan something much farther down the road it happens way too early. Its funny how death seems to bring life. Its weird how when really great things happen to you, something else comes behind you and scares the crap out of you.
Some of you know the situation at hand, while others, well you may not. What you don't know is how scared I am, I wasn't expecting this, and while I'm scared, I think that we can do this, I think that yes it means we are going to have to work together, and yes I know it's going to be hard, but that we can do this. I know your not like him, but in the back of my mind that situation is still there and I'm scared that your going to get freaked out and that your going leave me. I know how unrealistic that is, how unfair it is to you, but still it haunts me.
I know that without you I can't do this, that if I had to do this on my own I wouldn't make it, well I hope that you know that too. I hope you know how much I'm going to need you. I hope we can do this, I know in my heart that if we try we can do this, we can do anything.