Crap
So the other day I went ahead and stepped up to the plate, told a boy that I liked that I liked him and asked if there would be more to it than the occasional roll in bed. I liked what we had but I liked him for more than just that. So I asked if there could be more. He said we needed to talk about it and he would call me....that was two days ago...still no call, no text. Nothing.
It hurts. If he had just told me no, he didn't want more than what we had I would have been ok with it. Not thrilled but you know...ok with it. But this nothing it hurts because its like he felt like I wasn't worth even telling me no you know? Like I really was nothing to him. I didn't expect to be the moon and the stars to him but I really didn't expect to be nothing. I looked back on the times we spent together and there was nothing that showed anything less than a boy that liked a girl but was just a spaz and didn't know how to take the next step with it. He was just going to let it happen. But I guess I was wrong about that. I saw too much into it.
I guess my radar is off kilter.
I'll deal, it will just hurt for the next couple of days while I process it.
Boys suck. I need to find some men.
It hurts. If he had just told me no, he didn't want more than what we had I would have been ok with it. Not thrilled but you know...ok with it. But this nothing it hurts because its like he felt like I wasn't worth even telling me no you know? Like I really was nothing to him. I didn't expect to be the moon and the stars to him but I really didn't expect to be nothing. I looked back on the times we spent together and there was nothing that showed anything less than a boy that liked a girl but was just a spaz and didn't know how to take the next step with it. He was just going to let it happen. But I guess I was wrong about that. I saw too much into it.
I guess my radar is off kilter.
I'll deal, it will just hurt for the next couple of days while I process it.
Boys suck. I need to find some men.