Life.....is cruel
Hey those who read,
Life lately has just been so messed up. I no longer have my grandpa who was the nicest guy i have ever met and i am really upset about that at times but that seems like nothing compared to the pain i am getting from all my friends that i thought were my true friends. Everyone around me is changing like crazy and it is really annoying. Like I thought DJ liked me again...what the heck was i thinking...andywho so i thought he liked me cause he told me he did....shouldv'e known..he was lying and then ever since then he hasn't talked to me and is just a complete stuck up jerk now. And oh my gosh , my "best" friend.....I don't know what the heck is going on there. Like we keep fighting over stupid crap. And then if i am around her when someone else is around it seems like she suddenly doesn't know how to talk to me. What is up with that..but anywho...I can't think of anyone else who has changed because they probably don't mean crap to me...Well there is Alex but Alex has changed in a good way because now he is always happy...YAY for alex and his girly...I still hate that stupid bracelet...YUCK....Single a always what else is new there....I want to go out with these 2 guys cause they are really cool and nice and there is a third but the third is just...I dunno..it is stupid to like him.....cheerleading is starting to get really annoying because it seems like every practice me n jess get in some kind of disagreement like it is something competitive...GAYNESS....Like the other we were practicing stunts and my group was getting it and doing all this crap and her group was having a little trouble but they got it i think or i dunno..but anywho when we were leaving practice she was like ," well i'm not worried about not getting it cause the other group isn't even doing it right." in a really snooty way...but Whatever to that comment....cause it was just stupid. I dunno what the heck is going on between us lately.....it just seems liek we can't agree on anything anymore...Like we were actual sisters..you know like you love your sister but you can't stand her....I dunno. things around me are changing really fast and I don't understand why they are changing becasue some of the things are changing more than they should and causing me a lot of pain..but heck that is life right??? I dunno..
I guess i will talk to you guys later.
Life lately has just been so messed up. I no longer have my grandpa who was the nicest guy i have ever met and i am really upset about that at times but that seems like nothing compared to the pain i am getting from all my friends that i thought were my true friends. Everyone around me is changing like crazy and it is really annoying. Like I thought DJ liked me again...what the heck was i thinking...andywho so i thought he liked me cause he told me he did....shouldv'e known..he was lying and then ever since then he hasn't talked to me and is just a complete stuck up jerk now. And oh my gosh , my "best" friend.....I don't know what the heck is going on there. Like we keep fighting over stupid crap. And then if i am around her when someone else is around it seems like she suddenly doesn't know how to talk to me. What is up with that..but anywho...I can't think of anyone else who has changed because they probably don't mean crap to me...Well there is Alex but Alex has changed in a good way because now he is always happy...YAY for alex and his girly...I still hate that stupid bracelet...YUCK....Single a always what else is new there....I want to go out with these 2 guys cause they are really cool and nice and there is a third but the third is just...I dunno..it is stupid to like him.....cheerleading is starting to get really annoying because it seems like every practice me n jess get in some kind of disagreement like it is something competitive...GAYNESS....Like the other we were practicing stunts and my group was getting it and doing all this crap and her group was having a little trouble but they got it i think or i dunno..but anywho when we were leaving practice she was like ," well i'm not worried about not getting it cause the other group isn't even doing it right." in a really snooty way...but Whatever to that comment....cause it was just stupid. I dunno what the heck is going on between us lately.....it just seems liek we can't agree on anything anymore...Like we were actual sisters..you know like you love your sister but you can't stand her....I dunno. things around me are changing really fast and I don't understand why they are changing becasue some of the things are changing more than they should and causing me a lot of pain..but heck that is life right??? I dunno..
I guess i will talk to you guys later.