Uhm. Urg.
I think I just need to write or something. I'm not too happy.
Canada Day was excellent, though..
Me and
strawberry_pika spent the day together, and it was grand. ♥ We went into the Butterfly House together (Teaaaaaaaaaaaase~~~♥) and went to shops in Halifax, then watched the fireworks with friends. It was really great. I had a wonderful day, dear, no worries about that. ♥
But on my ride home my mom told me some bad news.. I won't say what, really, but when it comes down to it, both my mom and I have to make the decision right now of whether or not we should put down our dog, Koko.
Koko's.. well, she's a dog to me, but she's my dog. Well, more my mom's, Obi's literally my dog, almost. But he's living with my dad, so I don't see him as much (for those who don't know, I live with my mom). So of course, I've gotten more and more attached to Koko over the past few months.
And I've had a dog before Koko (she's my second dog) except that THAT dog (her name was Kleo) died when she was only a few months old due to a horrible freak accident. And now this.. can't I have a dog that actually dies of old age? Koko's only going to be 7 years old if we go through with putting her down.
So.. at the moment, ugh. I feel, well, terrible. I don't want to post this in my deviantART, too many people read that journal. I just wanna write it down. If I get comments though at the moment, I really couldn't give a fuck if I did or didn't then I only want to get a few.. not like, the 10-20 or so I'd get on dA. I don't want to think about it, but it's all I can think of. I don't want to lose sleep on it, but I know I will. At least tonight. Maybe I'll just stay up all night tonight. Or maybe I'll upset myself into being tired. I don't know.
I just wanted to write it down.
No, I'm not emo. I'm not depressed-depressed, I'm not anything except a bit upset. Anyone who has lost a pet or owns a pet and thinks of the idea of losing it would know how I feel right about now. I think I really do need to sleep on it. And who knows? We might not have to put her down.
But I'm going to end this journal before it gets too long on a subject I don't even want to currently talk about.
So that's that.
To those who read this, love you all, leave support, do nothing, I don't really care. Just.. thanks for reading. ♥
Happy Canada Day.