everything that I am... NOT
I'm not perfect.
and anyway, noone is perfect..
But there are people who are a slightly bit closer to perfection than others.
What is perfection anyway?
and even if someone knew, he would only think and pretend he knew because it's not possible for a human being to KNOW exactly what perfection is, simply because noone has ever seen/experienced it..And this is even more true when it comes to the kind of perfection you can apply to .. everyone.
Anyway, my point wasn't to talk about perfection..
It wasn't at all.
Another school week is over, and thus I'm getting closer to the "JOUR J"
Apart the fact that I'm in a huge and deep shit in physics and that maths really do require a lot of work. I'm ok.
or well, not really actually, I just had a physics exam today. and yes, I realize how much I'm in a totally unfavorable position ...
anyway, .. it's not like I should talk about it...I don't like talking about it after all. Because it simply makes me feel depressed..
I still miss the -exellent- grades I was getting in high school...>_>
But let's hope that this year won't be as much of a hell as the last.. hopefully people in my class will be less narrow-minded and scornful...
talking about scornful, I also saw those people who were with me last year. and though I was right in front of them, they didn't even say "bonjour" ..
I mean com'on is it that hard to just look at me and say "bonjour"???
I hate those people.. and they're supposed to become the next "elite"... anyway that wasn't the point neither, hopefully there are still people who manage to remain humble, no matter how impressive they are..
I shouldn't think about them since they're not with me this year.
I don't even know why I'm posting, life at school feels a little bit lonely., just a little bit though so it's okay.
And I'm being the worst friend ever.., one of my long time friend is pregnant and she's about to get an abortion..I can't believe I just wrote this. (it's crazy how you truly realize things when they're written down)..maybe she even already had it.
I wonder if she's alright, I' wonder what I'm supposed to do, I wonder what I should do , as someone who believes in God, ... I wonder.. if I'll consider her the same way because she , somehow, committed a crime..and.. But I don't have the right to judge her.. I must accept her as she is.. ... and I do worry for her..
and in the meanwhile, it's been over a week, that I have no news from her....
I don't have news from A neither...
I'd like to be so many things, or adjectives actually.. I'd like to be a good daughter, a good sister, a good friend, clever, nice, funny, understanding, cool, pretty ..impress people?? XD
But I'm not.
I do try my best though.. or well not at the "being pretty" one .. but .. umm.. I can't say I don't want to be pretty, it just.. I don't know, it won't fit me..
Well, maybe I'm just aiming too high, or too much towards perfection..
and again . what is perfection?
and anyway, noone is perfect..
But there are people who are a slightly bit closer to perfection than others.
What is perfection anyway?
and even if someone knew, he would only think and pretend he knew because it's not possible for a human being to KNOW exactly what perfection is, simply because noone has ever seen/experienced it..And this is even more true when it comes to the kind of perfection you can apply to .. everyone.
Anyway, my point wasn't to talk about perfection..
It wasn't at all.
Another school week is over, and thus I'm getting closer to the "JOUR J"
Apart the fact that I'm in a huge and deep shit in physics and that maths really do require a lot of work. I'm ok.
or well, not really actually, I just had a physics exam today. and yes, I realize how much I'm in a totally unfavorable position ...
anyway, .. it's not like I should talk about it...I don't like talking about it after all. Because it simply makes me feel depressed..
I still miss the -exellent- grades I was getting in high school...>_>
But let's hope that this year won't be as much of a hell as the last.. hopefully people in my class will be less narrow-minded and scornful...
talking about scornful, I also saw those people who were with me last year. and though I was right in front of them, they didn't even say "bonjour" ..
I mean com'on is it that hard to just look at me and say "bonjour"???
I hate those people.. and they're supposed to become the next "elite"... anyway that wasn't the point neither, hopefully there are still people who manage to remain humble, no matter how impressive they are..
I shouldn't think about them since they're not with me this year.
I don't even know why I'm posting, life at school feels a little bit lonely., just a little bit though so it's okay.
And I'm being the worst friend ever.., one of my long time friend is pregnant and she's about to get an abortion..I can't believe I just wrote this. (it's crazy how you truly realize things when they're written down)..maybe she even already had it.
I wonder if she's alright, I' wonder what I'm supposed to do, I wonder what I should do , as someone who believes in God, ... I wonder.. if I'll consider her the same way because she , somehow, committed a crime..and.. But I don't have the right to judge her.. I must accept her as she is.. ... and I do worry for her..
and in the meanwhile, it's been over a week, that I have no news from her....
I don't have news from A neither...
I'd like to be so many things, or adjectives actually.. I'd like to be a good daughter, a good sister, a good friend, clever, nice, funny, understanding, cool, pretty ..impress people?? XD
But I'm not.
I do try my best though.. or well not at the "being pretty" one .. but .. umm.. I can't say I don't want to be pretty, it just.. I don't know, it won't fit me..
Well, maybe I'm just aiming too high, or too much towards perfection..
and again . what is perfection?