I need to run far away can't go back to that place

[udontknowmel]

The past few weeks have... well they haven't been so fun. Today, during my American Indian class I relaxed a bit and got to know my group member who I sit next to. She's nice, but most of the hour I kept thinking about him. We had planned to meet for lunch, but (as usual) he canceled last minute because he had an "emergency"-- how many times have I heard that one before? Then again, apparently, to most of my friends back home I'm a "sucker for him" which is partially true.. and that I should come home more often so I wasn't "living in the cities under his influence" which is NOT why I moved here. Ask anyone, the last thing I wanted to be was near him when I first found out he was up here..

I caught myself even telling myself that they were just angry that I finally moved out and away from them which is kind of stupid considering I hardly see any of the group when I am home. I can't tell if it's his influence or if I'm finally thinking for myself.. not that I ever did that very well in high school.

One thing they managed to get right-- I'm a sucker for him.. all he has to do is smile.. *sigh*

I'm beyond confused.