i know, i know, lifes not fair, but im still gonna bitch about it.
ugh. im just in a mood this past week. or 4 days or whatever. this is a bitchy post. i just feel like a lot of things are sucky, even though i know i got it good. I work way to early, and I hate it. I hate having to have a job. its not fair. i barely have enough money to put gas in my car. and mom has to borrow it. and she works two jobs, plus accounting stuff, yet we still struggle. and on the first day of school when everyone has new clothes, ill have the same old ones that are all ill fitting becuase they shrink and i dont. i just want someone that depends on me. and i dont have anyone. i dont feel important right now. mom is focoused on katie and tony, steven has mandy there for him to hang out with, so lacy just isnt needed. thats how i feel, and i cant stand it and i dont know what to do about it. I went to the lake, and i got a sunburn on one arm. just one. not anywhere else. my stomach barley got darker. yeah, skin cancers bad, but i live one time. id rather like how i look and have fun in life while i still can than be super careful and live an extra 10 years as a wrinkly old lady. everyone either has a boyfriend that theyre with 24/7, or a best friend, and i have neither. all my friends are up their boysfriends butt, and im just stuck here. not wanted or needed. blah blah blah blah blah, i know. but o well. its how i feel. i wish there was something to do in this town. I wanna cry and I can't. I need something to make me happier.