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Well after a night of drinking (two nights ago?) I feel much much better. Things seem to be getting better. I really don't want to go back to the university though. Hopefully the TAs will strike and that will mean no more essays! I still plan on finishing all the English books though. I'm midway through Lives of Girls and Women by Alice Munro. Next is July's People by Nadine Gordimer. I'm getting pretty excited about my apartment. I'm going to start looking at paint colours soon maybe a warm yellow for the living room, a coral pink/red for the bedroom? No ideas for the bathroom and kitchen yet.
I'm working on deleting all of Eric's old emails. Its hard though, letting go. But its inevitable and I'm stupid for thinking of it.
Bah, I've lost almost 5 pounds since being home. My mother quite clearly has some sort of eating disorder, and she keeps scrutinizing me ("anything white is bad..dont eat potatos, bread pasta, sour cream...") right, hmmm but I love food, and as long as I'm exercising I'll eat whatever I want . When I was upstairs two minutes ago she was talking to her friend/employee about walking sticks because apparently walking is hard on your knees? Human beings are so useless!
I bought another Jeff Buckley CD -- Sketches (For My Sweetheart the Drunk). It turns out there are actually 2 Cds in it which is awesome. I've listened to the first, really like it.
I keep getting these headaches on the right side of my head. They go from the middle of my head, to my temple, into my eye. I suppose I should go to the optometrist since my glasses don't help me anymore. They make the headaches worse.
Oh and..I also saw Boogeyman the other day and it sucked. Then I saw Phantom of the Opera and it was pretty good. I've always loved that story. Why do I love the Phantom, who has a terribly wicked side, over Raoul who is good and hansome and all that?
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Time takes care of the wound
So I can believe
You had so much to give
You thought I couldn’t see
Gifts for boot heels to crush
Promises deceived
I had to send it away
To bring us back again
Your eyes and body brighten
Silent waters, deep
Your precious daughter in the
Other room, asleep
A kiss “Goodnight” from every
Stranger that I meet
I had to send it away
To bring us back again
Morning theft
Unpretender left
Ungraceful
True self is what
Brought you here, to me
A place where we can
Accept this love
Friendship battered down by
Useless history
Unexamined failure
But what am I still to you
Some thief who stole from you?
Or, some fool drama queen
Whose chances were few?
That brings us to who we need
A place where we can save
A heart that beats as
Both siphon and reservoir
You’re a woman, I’m a calf
You’re a window, I’m a knife
We come together
Making chance in the starlight
Meet me tomorrow night
Or any day you want
I have no right to wonder
Just how, or when
You know the meaning fits
There’s no relief in this
I miss my beautiful friend
I have to send it away
To bring her back again.
I'm working on deleting all of Eric's old emails. Its hard though, letting go. But its inevitable and I'm stupid for thinking of it.
Bah, I've lost almost 5 pounds since being home. My mother quite clearly has some sort of eating disorder, and she keeps scrutinizing me ("anything white is bad..dont eat potatos, bread pasta, sour cream...") right, hmmm but I love food, and as long as I'm exercising I'll eat whatever I want . When I was upstairs two minutes ago she was talking to her friend/employee about walking sticks because apparently walking is hard on your knees? Human beings are so useless!
I bought another Jeff Buckley CD -- Sketches (For My Sweetheart the Drunk). It turns out there are actually 2 Cds in it which is awesome. I've listened to the first, really like it.
I keep getting these headaches on the right side of my head. They go from the middle of my head, to my temple, into my eye. I suppose I should go to the optometrist since my glasses don't help me anymore. They make the headaches worse.
Oh and..I also saw Boogeyman the other day and it sucked. Then I saw Phantom of the Opera and it was pretty good. I've always loved that story. Why do I love the Phantom, who has a terribly wicked side, over Raoul who is good and hansome and all that?
______________________________________________________________________________________________
Time takes care of the wound
So I can believe
You had so much to give
You thought I couldn’t see
Gifts for boot heels to crush
Promises deceived
I had to send it away
To bring us back again
Your eyes and body brighten
Silent waters, deep
Your precious daughter in the
Other room, asleep
A kiss “Goodnight” from every
Stranger that I meet
I had to send it away
To bring us back again
Morning theft
Unpretender left
Ungraceful
True self is what
Brought you here, to me
A place where we can
Accept this love
Friendship battered down by
Useless history
Unexamined failure
But what am I still to you
Some thief who stole from you?
Or, some fool drama queen
Whose chances were few?
That brings us to who we need
A place where we can save
A heart that beats as
Both siphon and reservoir
You’re a woman, I’m a calf
You’re a window, I’m a knife
We come together
Making chance in the starlight
Meet me tomorrow night
Or any day you want
I have no right to wonder
Just how, or when
You know the meaning fits
There’s no relief in this
I miss my beautiful friend
I have to send it away
To bring her back again.