I did a bad bad thing...

[udanvgalvda]

So, my relationship is sort of on the rocks. Although Chris has no idea, I've known for a little while now that things weren't going to go any further between the two of us.

Last night I went out with a friend for dinner and then went to the bar to have a couple of drinks. He is graduating soon and wanted to hang out with people he didn't really get a chance to. We always would see each other around but never got the chance to really hang out. So, we went to dinner and had a really great time. Everything was pretty harmless because we're both in relationships. But I did a typical Kattie move and flirted back.

Nothing happened and I'm proud of myself for that. I didn't allow myself to get so drunk to not be able to control my actions. But I'm not proud of the fact that I wish something had happened. I don't want to ruin what he has. My relationship is already ruined. I'm in a very odd state of mind now. I really would like to say to him that we really should just continue to see each other in the halls and not pursue anything further. But a strong part of me wants to see where this will go.