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Today it's August and I have 9 days left before I am no longer a teenager. I wish I just had the motivation to pick up a guitar and write a song when I am feeling something instead of just waiting and saying I'll write it later. Last night there was an Embassy Suites hotel party. It was fun but there was something missing. I suppose as time moves forward it takes little pieces of your past with it ahead of you. If that makes any sense.
Someone put a lot of work and money into last night's party and at points it felt a bit unappreciated. That person seemed fine by morning, but I still owe you $10. Some people didn't show up at all and some people didn't pay in full, so we'll help cover the rest. A certain someone has a tendency to get bitter for no reason and expects way too much of people and situations, whether *other* people have realized that over time or not. At one point I asked myself (and I ask you the same) who would be considered (let's say by God) a better person - someone who steals a small item on a regular basis from a store, or someone who never breaks the law as such but may be an unconscious asshole, or manipulative, or conceited - or other such attributes. And at one point when a certain couple began drunkedly arguing, certain people denounced alcohol, saying, "This is what alcohol does to you" among other anti-alcohol statements, ironically while intoxicated due to their love of drinking. Sometimes I really wish that people would live up to statements like that, but somehow I just see continued mass drunken fiestas in the future. And surrounded by all this there I was, quietly observing knowing that whatever I said would be drowned in alcohol and forgotten. I suppose I'm just very disillusioned by a lot of things that went on... but it was still fun (nothing beats New Years Eve, however) considering I rarely "party" anyways. And I know I'm a big hypocrite myself. One day..... one day.
i think i hurt the joints in my elbow or whatever.
Someone put a lot of work and money into last night's party and at points it felt a bit unappreciated. That person seemed fine by morning, but I still owe you $10. Some people didn't show up at all and some people didn't pay in full, so we'll help cover the rest. A certain someone has a tendency to get bitter for no reason and expects way too much of people and situations, whether *other* people have realized that over time or not. At one point I asked myself (and I ask you the same) who would be considered (let's say by God) a better person - someone who steals a small item on a regular basis from a store, or someone who never breaks the law as such but may be an unconscious asshole, or manipulative, or conceited - or other such attributes. And at one point when a certain couple began drunkedly arguing, certain people denounced alcohol, saying, "This is what alcohol does to you" among other anti-alcohol statements, ironically while intoxicated due to their love of drinking. Sometimes I really wish that people would live up to statements like that, but somehow I just see continued mass drunken fiestas in the future. And surrounded by all this there I was, quietly observing knowing that whatever I said would be drowned in alcohol and forgotten. I suppose I'm just very disillusioned by a lot of things that went on... but it was still fun (nothing beats New Years Eve, however) considering I rarely "party" anyways. And I know I'm a big hypocrite myself. One day..... one day.
i think i hurt the joints in my elbow or whatever.