A new year, a new leaf
I can tell this year is going to be good. In fact, it's going to be amazing. I have good resolutions :).
So far the year has started out fantastically. I'm almost done with the herb I got down in SD, and once that is done I'm am as well. It's lost it's appeal for me, in general. I'm beyond that trial stage, and I realized that it's just not my thing.
Now to the juicy part. This not being such an asshole thing has evolved into a trying to be genuinely caring, kind, etc thing. I don't know exactly what came over me during winter break, or perhaps more accurately during the past oh 8 months or so. Whatever it was I didn't like it, and 2006 is a choice year for this sort of thing. Why 2006? Why not. It's a balance thing, I'm pretty sure. Either way, I've noticed a dramatic difference already in my relationships with other people. Obviously, but then again obviously easy to lose sight of, the more emotional stock one puts in life and relationships, the deeper those bonds get. Somehow I untangled those sometimes messy but rewarding emotional strings from my relationships, and as a result, those relationships dried out, got stale. Over break I finally wised up, and though I'm a little out of practice, I'm getting the hang of things again. Getting the hang of being vulnerable sometimes, I suppose.
So to all who have felt alienated, kept at a distance, and/or hurt by my slight emotional retardation I'm sorry. Also, please bear with me as I really am rusty and trying hard to just kinda ease into this. Thanks :).
So far the year has started out fantastically. I'm almost done with the herb I got down in SD, and once that is done I'm am as well. It's lost it's appeal for me, in general. I'm beyond that trial stage, and I realized that it's just not my thing.
Now to the juicy part. This not being such an asshole thing has evolved into a trying to be genuinely caring, kind, etc thing. I don't know exactly what came over me during winter break, or perhaps more accurately during the past oh 8 months or so. Whatever it was I didn't like it, and 2006 is a choice year for this sort of thing. Why 2006? Why not. It's a balance thing, I'm pretty sure. Either way, I've noticed a dramatic difference already in my relationships with other people. Obviously, but then again obviously easy to lose sight of, the more emotional stock one puts in life and relationships, the deeper those bonds get. Somehow I untangled those sometimes messy but rewarding emotional strings from my relationships, and as a result, those relationships dried out, got stale. Over break I finally wised up, and though I'm a little out of practice, I'm getting the hang of things again. Getting the hang of being vulnerable sometimes, I suppose.
So to all who have felt alienated, kept at a distance, and/or hurt by my slight emotional retardation I'm sorry. Also, please bear with me as I really am rusty and trying hard to just kinda ease into this. Thanks :).