so fucking tired
Internet is still broken, hopefully will hold out til i post this.
So, short sum-up of my past few (four or five, cant really remember) days.
Starts with me making the (ultimately stupid) decision to go with my dad to the mall before i have to work that evening. It was wonderful as I found a really cute bell/angel for my grandma (who collects both) and presents for my mom too. Am told that I am wonderful and awesome for getting cool pressie for derek to give to my mom. generally fun times except that i had cuts on the bottoms of my feets and they started to kill from all the walking around. Also, dad took so long in store that i had barely enough time to get ready for work.
Work was horrid. people were nasty and every time i turned around someone was asking for something that they needed shipped before xmas (impossible, natch).
send computer out to be fixed. Comes back a few days ago still nt fixed but now missing one of it's little feeties so it's off kilter.
get home at midnight, eat, sleep.
suffer from insomnia of the type where you wake up in the middle of the night feelin like you just narrowly escaped death by asphyxiation in your sleep.
wake up for almost-opening shift, work til evening then forced to clean up around house, then xmas tree (i think, not sure of days anymore)
more long workdays after almost no sleep. feet hurt lots.
get yelled at for inability to respond to texts. thoght i was being wonderful for doing extra hours at work. am told am to wake up to real world. am sad while waiting for brother to fnish getting high and fucking his 15 year old so i can go home.
blah blah blah, more non-sleep, more work, more feel like crap, more family yelling at each other.
fastforward to xmas where my calls are ignored and i get to feel like crap. get pretty gifts for xmas. can't remember what.
stop reading stupid books cause they make me too sad.
Get phone call this morning that grandma's in hospital for a minor problem but they're keeping her there to find out the problem and now we're driving down maybe tonight maybe tomorrow night.
still ahve no phone calls returned. too sad.
have no idea why i just wrote all this out, as i skipped a lot of the important parts and said a lot of the unimportant parts, but i'm justsad now so i want to not feel so alone and that noone caresabout me. would also be angry if i had the energy for it.
am pushing my luck with computer now, shall post an then see if AIM will work again
So, short sum-up of my past few (four or five, cant really remember) days.
Starts with me making the (ultimately stupid) decision to go with my dad to the mall before i have to work that evening. It was wonderful as I found a really cute bell/angel for my grandma (who collects both) and presents for my mom too. Am told that I am wonderful and awesome for getting cool pressie for derek to give to my mom. generally fun times except that i had cuts on the bottoms of my feets and they started to kill from all the walking around. Also, dad took so long in store that i had barely enough time to get ready for work.
Work was horrid. people were nasty and every time i turned around someone was asking for something that they needed shipped before xmas (impossible, natch).
send computer out to be fixed. Comes back a few days ago still nt fixed but now missing one of it's little feeties so it's off kilter.
get home at midnight, eat, sleep.
suffer from insomnia of the type where you wake up in the middle of the night feelin like you just narrowly escaped death by asphyxiation in your sleep.
wake up for almost-opening shift, work til evening then forced to clean up around house, then xmas tree (i think, not sure of days anymore)
more long workdays after almost no sleep. feet hurt lots.
get yelled at for inability to respond to texts. thoght i was being wonderful for doing extra hours at work. am told am to wake up to real world. am sad while waiting for brother to fnish getting high and fucking his 15 year old so i can go home.
blah blah blah, more non-sleep, more work, more feel like crap, more family yelling at each other.
fastforward to xmas where my calls are ignored and i get to feel like crap. get pretty gifts for xmas. can't remember what.
stop reading stupid books cause they make me too sad.
Get phone call this morning that grandma's in hospital for a minor problem but they're keeping her there to find out the problem and now we're driving down maybe tonight maybe tomorrow night.
still ahve no phone calls returned. too sad.
have no idea why i just wrote all this out, as i skipped a lot of the important parts and said a lot of the unimportant parts, but i'm justsad now so i want to not feel so alone and that noone caresabout me. would also be angry if i had the energy for it.
am pushing my luck with computer now, shall post an then see if AIM will work again