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i worked tuesday night from 9-1. fun times doing inventory with the crazy people at work. wednesday i went to the beach with flavia and lara. good times. that night i went to see harry potter with juan. hes a really nice boy, a really cute nice boy. hes not like other beleners ive met in the past. well hopefully not. thursday i worked from 7-11. i was supposed to get out at 10 but they wanted me to stay and close so i stayed. i need money anyways. by the time i got home though it wasnt even worth going to the grove so i missed it :( o well theres always next thursday. friday i worked again from 12-6 and came home and got ready for john jarretts wake. i dont think ive ever been so emotional before in my life. i cried so much and i couldnt believe he was there in front of me in the that gray casket. im so happy he was such an awesome person and thought of his friends and family before he passed. there were only happy pictures of him around and thats the way it should be. everytime i think of him now i think of him and his gorgeous smile. he will be missed but never forgotten. after that i kind of felt guilty going to fumas going away party because i knew i was going to have a good time with my friends but i didnt want to dwell on everything that had just happened, so i went anyways a little teary eyed at first. everyone and there gmama was there and i had a heart to heart with joey and nick. nick i found out is one of "the kids" best friends. its good to know "the kid" is a liar. i hate him and what he did to me. i cant believe i was ever so nieve and i let a couple of words i believed were true get in the way of my morals. you learn from your mistakes people say, this is one i know i must never repeat. im glad i met nick last night, and im glad i had the chat with him.
the next few months are going to change my life forever. some of the friendliest faces i see everyday, wont be so existent. the thing is i think im willing to accept it. the past couple of weeks i may have seemed distant and its only because i dont want to end up hurting even more in the end. change is good, but losing friends is not. peoples truest colors eventually shine through though and we will see the ending results within the next couple of months. i hope it has the story book ending ive always dreamed of.
to everyone whos left or leaving to college this week: im glad ive met you and i will never forget you. have fun wherever your going and please be safe. thanks for having an impact in my life.
-lauren
p.s.-is it possible to want to get serious with a boy who is leaving to college in 2 months? why do these things happen now...
the next few months are going to change my life forever. some of the friendliest faces i see everyday, wont be so existent. the thing is i think im willing to accept it. the past couple of weeks i may have seemed distant and its only because i dont want to end up hurting even more in the end. change is good, but losing friends is not. peoples truest colors eventually shine through though and we will see the ending results within the next couple of months. i hope it has the story book ending ive always dreamed of.
to everyone whos left or leaving to college this week: im glad ive met you and i will never forget you. have fun wherever your going and please be safe. thanks for having an impact in my life.
-lauren
p.s.-is it possible to want to get serious with a boy who is leaving to college in 2 months? why do these things happen now...