"It's getting to the point...
...where I'm no fun anymore...I am sorry" That's what I have been feeling like lately. I want to be around people and around friends, but I've felt like my crappy mood lately is gonna bring them down. If there's one thing I don't like is to see my friends down, especially if I am the cause of it. Anyways, fast forward to present time and day. I am feeling pretty good, because I am starting to figure out a plan for myself.
It's amazing what eight hours roundtrip all alone in my truck can do. I decided to go down south to Miami this weekend to visit my mom for Mother's Day. Boy, did I need that alone time. It was also good to see my mom happy that I made it down there to see her. It is very rare that I drive down to Miami other than Christmas time. Ever since I moved out of that sh**hole of a place called Kendall, I dread going back. But I am going to refrain from anymore nasty comments right now about the City Dreadful, hehehe. But I digress...now back to my thoughts...
I know that I worry too much about everything, especially other people of the opposite sex see me. Since I could remember, whenever I am around a girl that I like or am attracted to I tend to stop being myself and try to impress them. Then when they don't like me anymore or don't show interest in me I get all upset about it. Well, I realized on one of those 8 hours all alone..."F that noise". Seriously, why should I care. And to go along with that, I realized that I want to impress myself, and make myself happy before trying to make anyone else happy or trying to bring anyone else into my life. Now, granted, it would be nice at times to share certain things with someone, but for right now I'll just deal with it. Then I started thinking about all the things that I want to do with my life in the coming months and in the next year or so. For the first time in awhile, I am excited about the possibilities of the coming months. I'm not go into detail right now, but I am definitely going to keep this thing updated about how I am doing with reaching the goals I have set forth for myself. Yeah, it sounds corny to make goals and crap, but I don't give an F anymore about what others think. So, to all my friends that read this thing out there and that have been supportive of me, I appreciate you all more than you can ever imagine. Even if I don't talk some of you all that much, I really am thankful of you. Any of those who doubt me...I will prove you wrong. 'Nuf said.
Catch you on the flipside, Mr. Bass!!!
Jeffy G