I just need to say it and I know it doesn't make sense
I am so tired of it all of it. I wish I could just start over. Why didn't I listen to jon why am I so hard headed. I need to listen to jon and realize he is right I am not good at anything. I need to just go to school and get good grades and get a job and then make money. I just wanted to prove that I can do lots of things at once. Well I can't and I just can't deal with it anymore. Everyone else sees things changing I don't that means Its me. I love helping so much but it comes to a point where im just not helping anymore. Thinking makes me cry so why think. THank God I am going home I need to talk to my dad I know he won't tell me what to do but he won't judge me Not that anyone I talk to does but I hope he can help. If I keep this balled up anymore im going to explode. I have put up with hard things in the past it is just hard when its coming at you from all sides. But again I should have listened to jon. I know when her reads this he is going to say I told you so but you know what I don't care. My life isn't what I want it to be and I need to go the way I want things to go. Its my life and this is my world and as my aunt would say "Its all about ME" This is just me talking to myself please don't take anything differently because you probley don't know whats going on. I AM GOING HOME!!!!!!!!!! Also Oct. 4th starts the monopoly game so if you get peices please give them to me so I don't have to get fat. I love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!