long time no write
so much has changed since my last entry. reading it all over again just makes you realize that new romances are really overly romanticized. call it getting older or just plain jaded, but i have been taking things with a grain of salt lately. its interesting how things work themselves out. ive found someone potentially important in the scheme of things and im not to sure how im going to respond to it. with all parties considered, everyone deserves respect and dignity which ultimately makes me take this chain of events very seriously. im not going to fuck around this time. its not like with zack where im going to do what i want cuz i have no interest in keeping him around because he doesnt really offer me any piece of mind. this is for real, and im kinda scared out of my mind. this is prolly the real starting point since my relationship with jack. i cant believe its already been a year and my heart is just now starting to reopen for another long haul. weird....but refreshing to find someone on my level. here i go again romanticizing.
working 50-60 hours a week will let you know what your boundaries are. i had to take the past two days off because of an incident at work dealing with a depressive/opiate addicted epileptic. that in addition to people actively trying to evade your support in order to end it all (ie running out the door, down the street looking for cars to hit them) is a bit unearthing. definitely doesnt make me take things for granted.
we have so much to live for.
working 50-60 hours a week will let you know what your boundaries are. i had to take the past two days off because of an incident at work dealing with a depressive/opiate addicted epileptic. that in addition to people actively trying to evade your support in order to end it all (ie running out the door, down the street looking for cars to hit them) is a bit unearthing. definitely doesnt make me take things for granted.
we have so much to live for.