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[Locked to Sam]
See, here's the thing.
I'm sick and tired of being hurt and disappointed by people who were supposed to have my back. I took a demotion today and Amy's stepping into my old role, I had an absolutely devastating conversation with Toby earlier this week, Donna's pissed at me for something I'm still not exactly clear on, Josh thinks our child is a fucking piece of processed meat, Andy Wyatt's pissed at me and wants me to have nothing to do with her or her family.
I can't beg people to respect me anymore Sam, or to like me. The only thing I can hope for right now is a little bit less pain on a daily basis. The only thing I can afford to want is to be left alone, because whenever I hope for anything more, I get hurt.
And I've had a bad day, and a bad week. I'm exhausted, I'm overly emotional, and I'm scared to death, so can you maybe wait until things don't hurt quite so much before you put us both out there to be hurt again?
Please, Sam. Just let it go for now. Because I don't have the strength to keep rolling that fucking boulder back up the hill. Do you get that?
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See, here's the thing.
I'm sick and tired of being hurt and disappointed by people who were supposed to have my back. I took a demotion today and Amy's stepping into my old role, I had an absolutely devastating conversation with Toby earlier this week, Donna's pissed at me for something I'm still not exactly clear on, Josh thinks our child is a fucking piece of processed meat, Andy Wyatt's pissed at me and wants me to have nothing to do with her or her family.
I can't beg people to respect me anymore Sam, or to like me. The only thing I can hope for right now is a little bit less pain on a daily basis. The only thing I can afford to want is to be left alone, because whenever I hope for anything more, I get hurt.
And I've had a bad day, and a bad week. I'm exhausted, I'm overly emotional, and I'm scared to death, so can you maybe wait until things don't hurt quite so much before you put us both out there to be hurt again?
Please, Sam. Just let it go for now. Because I don't have the strength to keep rolling that fucking boulder back up the hill. Do you get that?
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