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if u asked me where i have been this last week and a half...i honestly cant tell u. i've been so tired and sooo busy...o well
i was like actually getting excited about going to orientation until i found out i was going with a few people from hewlett...i thought the school was going to be like good with that kind of stuff and not organize me with other people from Hewlett...it's not that i'm like against seeing people from there, it's just that i kind of think it defeats the whole clean slate idea...i mean when u go to college u think "k, here's my chance to start over and be a brand new person and make up for everything that i missed out on in high school...and now it's like all down the drain and the best i can do is put on a smile and pretend that it doesnt bother me so i dont scare off all potential friends...god i hope i dont wind up having to spend all my time with these people from Hewlett...seriously, everyone told me dont go to buffalo cause all the people from hewlett go there and i was like "yeah but it's such a big school if 10 of us go we are never going to run into each other"...and then god raised his big boot out of the sky and gave me a big kick in the ass...i feel really really trapped...i really wanted to go somep place where no one knew me...know everyone is going to have all these preconceived notions about me...what a fucking waste
please leave me lovey text messages cause i could really use them right now...i'll see everyone when i get back...peace
<3<3<3RJF
i was like actually getting excited about going to orientation until i found out i was going with a few people from hewlett...i thought the school was going to be like good with that kind of stuff and not organize me with other people from Hewlett...it's not that i'm like against seeing people from there, it's just that i kind of think it defeats the whole clean slate idea...i mean when u go to college u think "k, here's my chance to start over and be a brand new person and make up for everything that i missed out on in high school...and now it's like all down the drain and the best i can do is put on a smile and pretend that it doesnt bother me so i dont scare off all potential friends...god i hope i dont wind up having to spend all my time with these people from Hewlett...seriously, everyone told me dont go to buffalo cause all the people from hewlett go there and i was like "yeah but it's such a big school if 10 of us go we are never going to run into each other"...and then god raised his big boot out of the sky and gave me a big kick in the ass...i feel really really trapped...i really wanted to go somep place where no one knew me...know everyone is going to have all these preconceived notions about me...what a fucking waste
please leave me lovey text messages cause i could really use them right now...i'll see everyone when i get back...peace
<3<3<3RJF